Life and the Pursuit of Happiness

I cried today. That was fun. I am a chick. It happens. I finished up my homework earlier than usual, so I had a little free time on my hands. Joel and I went for some driving lessons in Pearl. He can only drive when the top is down since her visibility is pretty bad. We kinda had another spat today because when I was talking to one of the guys I met on-line, after I got off the phone, Joel said that I had been flirting with him. Now, there are two schools of thought about this. Some people think I always flirt while others think I never flirt. So who knows. Really I think the guy and I were just having fun being geeky. He is getting a MS in engineering management or something like that at UNCC and working. I was telling him how busy I am with everything I have been doing. It is nice to find someone in the same situation sometimes. Unlike me, however, he got his undergrad in religion and was going to be a youth minister.

Which reminds me, I have really been slacking about going to church. Randy from work asked me if I went last weekend. He tries to keep me honest. I have been having a hard time getting to sleep at night, so it has been even harder getting to church than usual. Also, I want to try out some of the other churches in the area. It is hard when it is just me. It would be easier if I had someone to bring with me. One of the guys who just started his PhD with me said that he and his wife go to a younger church group which is in this area. Maybe I will tag along with them some time.

I am feeling better. Truthfully, I was getting pretty darn irritable. I didn't know what the heck was going on with Todd and I, and I almost decided maybe we shouldn't see each other if I was just going to have a feeling like something was wrong but nothing was being said. So, being me, I decided to bring everything out in the open. It was good. We talked, and I think we figured out a little bit more about each other. We are dating but not exclusive right now. That is fine with me because it sucks having a boyfriend who is never around. So, we will get to know each other better and see what happens. Geez, it was great having a mature, adult conversation. I like just being able to talk and reason with people. I can handle most anything as long as I am not blind-sided and know what the heck is going on.

Actually, it is probably better this way. I tend to get into relationships where we fall in love way too quickly and things end up going badly in the long run. I think it is great for people to fall in love, but it helps when both people stay true to themselves. So many times people want to change to make the other person love them more. At the time, they are so in love that they think they can sustain it. However, even though people change all the time, I think it is better if they learn to love each other for who they are first. Obviously, I have a pretty strong personality and am pretty open. So people can catch on to what I want and who I am pretty quickly. I tend to not realize when someone is assimilating to be more like me to try to make me happy. I just think, hey, look at that, isn't it great that we have that in common. Then later on . . . . Doh, I didn't see that coming. I hate bad surprises.

So anyway, I am going to visit Todd this weekend. He is settling into his new place. Joel is taking his driving test on Monday. He was doing pretty good on the road today. I think I was more nervous just for the fact that he was driving my Pearl.

Next weekend, I am trying to plan a whitewater rafting trip. That should be fun.

Oh, and hey, Jim - you were going to come visit and go hiking. You better hurry up before it starts snowing in the mountains.

Kim and Tony - you need to come visit too.

People who need to call me and tell me how much they love me after they read this:

-Dave
-Ann
-Kenny
-Joel (just yell - hey, Pam!)
-Kim
-Pei-Jen
-Muhammed
-Pedro and Jamie
-Melanie and Adam
-Felicia
-Jim
-Francis (I don't think he reads my blog though)
-Liz
-Pete
-Chip

Isn't it great how I not only crave attention but demand it?

Oh, and Muhammed - this time I added some carriage returns when I vomitted on my blog. I don't want you to have to copy and paste it into Word again.

Hugs!
Pam