Bele Chere

Kirk, Muhammed, Todd, Mike, Wendy, Pete, Deanna, Chad, Tom and I met up/went to Ashville yesterday for the Bele Chere festival. (I feel like I might be missing someone . . . ?) Some of us left my house in the afternoon. We ate dinner at the Bier Garden, walked around the hippie festival, and went to the Blues Travelers' concert. I tried talking to an over zealous Christian evangelist who was crusading for Jesus Christ (yet ironically driving more people away than saving them), but as most zealots are, he did not listen.

I got home around 1:30 AM - 2 AM from Ashville, and Todd and I ended up talking until about 5 in the morning. He just moved to Winston-Salem from Texas. So, I was pretty much useless today. I took a crazy huge nap.

Things are going well. I have really good friends, and it feels good to be around them again. They make me feel good about myself. They are a good group of people.

Ack! My foot is asleep. Well, darn it.

I told work I would take a look at something over the weekend, so I am probably going to try to do that a little later tonight. I canceled my meeting with Su ad postponed it until later in the week. Amy has been cool about letting my random friends stay over. I really want to get out and see a movie with her or something soon.

Anyway, I better get going. I have some life to catch up on. So who was the anonymous person who said I was pretty darn nice? Well, thank you. :-)

To Each His Own

If someone thinks I am this horrible person, does it makes sense for me to stay in contact with them? Am I a horrible person? Some of you out there know me better than others.

It almost makes things easier when someone is mean to you. It makes it easier to discredit what they say and do. Sean left the way he did because he didn't want to seem like the bad guy. It was so hard to get over him because he treated me really well and then he was just . . . gone. It took me realizing that he wasn't being himself. He even said that. For a long time, I wanted to believe that I knew the real Sean, and he didn't. That didn't get me very far. It was easier once i could think, I love my Sean . . . but he doesn't exist. I can't make him exist. And no one else is getting him either.

I am trying to not let other people make me feel badly about myself. I try to remind myself that the only one I truly have to answer to is God. I desire to pursue his standard. He knows what is truly in my heart. If there is evil in my heart, He will find it. If there is good, He will find that too. I have to trust that any award that is given to me will be through God and not my own doing.

I am not going to say that I am the best Christian in the world. My mind is full of doubts. Linda Callahan, a Christian counselor and the wife of one of the associate pastors at the Family Church, comforted me with this verse:

But if You can do anything, have compassion on us and help us." 23 Then Jesus said to him, "'If You can?' Everything is possible to the one who believes." 24 Immediately the father of the boy cried out, "I do believe! Help my unbelief."

Help my disbelief. I take that as we can pray to God to help strengthen our faith when we are low on it. After all, Jesus is the author and perfector of our faith - not us.

I realize that I am a huge home-body. People ask me where I hang out in Charlotte, and I think . . . um, home. It is funny because when I do hang out with my friends, I always invite them over here or casually suggest somewhere that is half a mile from my house. Jessica still complains she hasn't seen the inside of my car. I do need to get out some more. I am never going to be a bar hopper or partier, but there are a lot of other things to do in Charlotte. I need to get to some waterfalls.

So, my friends have been called misfits and my house a circus. :-) Even so, I love my friends and my home. I wouldn't have it any other way.

The Thunder Rolls

It looks pretty scary outside. I think it is about to pour. I worked from home today. I had this one bug that was a really big pain to fix. It is a little harder when everyone works at home because it is hard to get ahold of anyone.

Whoa, I was going to write some more, but I think I need to unplug the laptop because of the lightning.

I'll be back on later.

Pam!

Sweet Release

I'm better now. Miraculously, a light came on. I don't need someone who puts me down. I don't need someone who yells at me. I don't need someone who doesn't trust or appreciate me. Even if I am messed up, someone who loved me wouldn't make me feel like I was. And it is pointless for me to mourn over a relationship that I can't look back on and find anything that made me feel special or loved. Usually, I find the good things and cling on to them. I am not going to do that this time. I focus on the positive things about that person I am giong to miss. But It just wasn't what I wanted. I usually feel rejected because I am not what the other person wants. In this case, I don't care. Even if I were what the other person wanted and I did think the world of that person, I wasn't having my needs or wants fulfilled.

I can't say I am getting the hang of this self esteem thing. I still need friends who are supportive and caring. I still sometimes feel like I deserve to be treated poorly. But I can logically deduce that nobody deserves to be treated poorly . . . no matter what. We all have value; we all have problems. It doesn't make sense to continually condemn one another.

I don't want to say that Lisa is right . . . She always emphasized focusing on the positive. In some ways I agree; however, I dislike being optimistic. I don't like thinking everything is going to work out okay if I don't see myself or someone else doing something to make sure that it is going to work out okay. It doesn't make sense to focus on problems all the time. It also doesn't make sense to ignore the problems. We need solutions.

Here are some solutions for myself:
1) I need to get to the gym. I have been feeling icky. I am still wearing size 2-4 pants, but I have gained about 8 pounds since I moved here.
2) I'm going to get my butt to church.
3) No matter who I meet, I am going to insist that I get to hang out with my friends and that they make an effort to get to know my friends.
4) I am going to make a conscious effort to compliment people and build them up.
5) I am going to stay calm.

Dave might come see me next week. He has some time off before starting his job. I think I am going to Ashville on Saturday with Jessica and Kirk.

Later,
Pam

Blah

Everyone is wiling to tell you exactly what is wrong with you but not be there to help you fix it. Someone is going to surprise me one day. God, I hope it will be soon.

Didn't get anything done this evening. I took a nap after work. I am going to head to bed after I write this. I feel myself getting depressed. It isn't as bad as I have been, but I definitely feel strained to feel like doing much of anything.

Count my blessings:
Scuro
Ra
Kenny
Joel
Dave
Ann
Liz
Muhammed
Tom
Pedro
Jamie
Melanie
Adam

Friends who know me for who I am and love me anyway.

Scummy Pond

I am so freaking impatient. I am always waiting for something to happen. I like change. I like having something that needs to be done. I like fixing problems. I like checking off things on my list. I like being needed. I need to be useful. I can't relax if there isn't a plan. I don't mind making contingency plans. I can be flexible. Most things I am easy about. Somethings, I can't negotiate. I have learned some good lessons from life. Others, I have yet to learn. I like taking action. I like being proactive. I like when people have initiative. I don't settle on okay. I believe in doing my best. I know nothing I do will redeem me. I know I can never be good enough. I am alive because of God's grace instead of my own accomplishments. I have a problem with authority. I like being respected and treated like an equal. I am outspoken. I will intervene in a friend's life if I think it is for their own good. I expect my friends to do the same. I believe in being solution oriented. I get depressed when people focus on problems. I like breaking things down to understandable bits. I like strategically solving things piece by piece. I strive to be more like Jesus. I seek humility, faith, love, hope, mercy, sacrifice, charity, and good qualities. I plan to change. I am not going to stay the same. I believe that I should always try to improve. I strive to have healthy communication with others. I believe that I should be thankful for what I have. I dislike bad things. They make me feel scared and uncomfortable. They make me feel like I am not safe. I don't like doing things by myself. I like sharing experiences with others. I like helping others. I enjoy when I can make others happy.

Just Me

I have officially completed the painting of my bedroom. It looks really good. I have to put some finishing touches, then I plan to post some pictures. I have to work on the UNCC project I am part of a little later on today. I don't feel like doing it right now.

I am sad what happened between Jason and I. I think he is a great guy. I just think he doesn't know what to do with me sometimes. We are extremely different which is good sometimes and bad others. I swear he thinks I am crazy. It is amazing how out of proportion things can get when you care about someone. It doesn't make any sense.

It is also amazing how different each relationship is. You never have the same problems twice. I mean, that would make it easier because you could have learned something from the last one. But, no, you encounter completely different issues that you, again, how no idea how to overcome.

I have decided to pretend Sean doesn't exist. I mean, my Sean doesn't exist at least. I guess I am glad that Jason isn't pretending to be someone he is not. I think that is what screwed me up the most was trusting in something and having it all taken away without warning . . .

I don't feel any harsh feelings toward him (Jason not Sean). I know that he probably does toward me. If he doesn't, he will call one day. If so, I would rather him not call until he gets over those feelings. We are both good people. We both could have done much worse.

Anyway, I don't want to focus on that too much. I am getting hungry, but I am back on my regular diet of eating a big lunch and hardly anything for dinner. My size 2 pants were a little too snug today.

I found the UNCC gym class schedule on-line today. I am excited about that. I need to try out some of their classes. Maybe I can get Kassie to come with me. I'm such a chicken. :-)

This is my daily e-mail Bible verse:

The Son of Man came to seek and to save what was lost.
--Luke 19:10

Lost. I can agree that without God, we are pretty much lost. Living is hard to do. Being happy is even harder. Doing the right thing is usually the hardest thing to do. It seems like life is full of dichotomies - you ahve to lose your life to save it. You have to experience hate to know true love . . .etc. So confusing. I don't think I can and don't plan to try to figure it all out. Someone else has to be in charge because it is definitely not me.

Anyhow, I might watch a little television (no cable, baby!) and vege before tackling the work I need to get done.

Post Nap Pam

I just booked my ticket to California. I am going from August 12 - 19. I called Auntie Dot before buying the ticket so I think those dates will be okay. I warned her that I don't plan to rent a car and drive when I get there. She was very surprised. See, she doesn't know me well, does she?

I am debating if I am going to attempt to paint that lone wall in my bedroom tonight. Since it is 9 PM, I doubt I will do it. I have to sleep in there, and I don't think I would do so well sleeping in a room with wet paint fumes.

It is very quiet in the house tonight. I don't think Amy is here. I am not sure where she went. Her car was gone when I got here, but I know she must've come home because the recycle container was brought in from this morning. Oh wait, I hear the door. That must be her.

I am a little down today. Work was good. I was very sleepy though. I had fun on the drive home. It was over 95 degrees out, so I put the top down and cranked up the air conditioning and radio. It was a fun ride. I came home and took my nap. I need to sign on at work to make up about half an hour. I left a little early today.

All in all, things are going pretty well. After all, the cats now have a cat door.

Old Georgia Pine

I didn't get everything done. Three out of four walls ion my bedroom are painted. It looks really good and will only need some minor spot touch ups. I went to Boardwalk Billy's to listen to one of the live bands play. They played a lot of the 70-80's music that I like. I ate nachos for dinner so my tummy is hurting a little bit.

I went to buy my tickets to California, but I figured I should call and confirm first. I am hoping to make it the 3rd week of August. I have to be back on the 20th for my PhD Orientation for the Fall. Uncle Ray answered and said he would have Auntie Dot call me back.

I stayed up late last night, so I am getting sleepy. Amy and Dominque went to watch the race. I heard there was a big controversy about the new rumble strips they are using at the Poconos race track. Not sure how that turned out. Let me check. Kurt Busch won. I think he is Kenny's favorite driver. I guess Tony Stewart broke his winning streak. He is still #2 in the overall unofficial rankings. Amy wants Dale Jr. to win. I don't particularly care, but I am just amused about how much I have learned about NASCAR in the last few months.

I was so hot at the concert. I feel like I got dehydrated. I drank two big glasses of apple juice so now I feel kind of sick. Ugh.

And, don't ask about Jason for a while. I don't think I will hear from him again, so I won't have much to say. It is just better to talk about things when they are good than when they are bad.

Too many nachos in Pam's belly. :-(

I shall try to write more later.

Pam

I'm Back

Hey, everyone. I have been occuppied for a few days, but I am back for an update. I didn't make it to church today like I should, but I am comitting myself to do better.

I just want to get some things done today:

1) deposit checks
2) clean the house
3) paint my bedroom
4) e-mail Dr. Wong
5) buy tickets to California

Some other things, I am sure. Mr. Matthews and his wife came over to put in the cat door yesterday and the day before. I think the cats are getting the hang of it.

It is a beautiful day outside. Amy and Dominique are here. I need to hop in the shower and get ready for the day.

Jason's mom and I went to a nail shop yesterday. She got a manicure, and I got a pedicure. It was fun. I think my toe ring might be making my toe deformed though. Maybe I am just paranoid!

Pam Made Enchiladas

I make some pretty darn good enchiladas. They are cooking in the oven right now. I am making Santa Fe rice as well. I was very happy Harris Teeter carried that type of rice. Publix stopped carrying it for some reason. I couldn't find it anywhere since high school.

Amy got an extension on her clerkship. She is going to be staying here until December. She is a good roommate in the scheme of things.

I am thinking about taking a trip to CA the third week of August, but I have to find out about tickets, family schedules, etc. I feel like I am planning last minute, but I just found out from my boss that I should be able to take the time off. I am a little scared going out there by myself since I haven't gone to see my relatives since I was 10 years old. I think it would be a good growing experience though. We will see if it works out.

TIAA-CREF just sent me an invite to a reception for the recipients of their fellowship. That should be exciting. I am very thankful. They are giving my $25,000 for my first year of PhD studies on top of UNCC waicing my tuition. Awesome!

I better get going and make sure I am not burning dinner.

Home Sweet Smoke-Free Home

I made it back in one piece! Jason set up my bookshelf and office chair so my office looks looking sweet now. I feel like I have a lot to catch up on around here.

I don't know how my blog got on a site called trashygossip.com. I think that is kinda funny. You better watch out with me and all my trash talk. ;-)

I went to work today. I have been dreading asking my boss about my schedule for the fall. If he approves it, I would be working about 18 hours a week while taking 10 credit hours. That is going to be a tough load, but I think I can do it. If he doesn't approve it, then I will do the teaching assistantship. I think I will find out tomorrow.

How come RAISEERROR doesn't set @@ERROR = to something other than zero when you raise the serverity level about 11. It just doesn't make sense. Argh,

Amy found out that they are extending her contract until December. I haven't talked to her about if she wants to stay here if she accepts the offer. Things are really complicated with me living in North Charlotte and Jason living in Gastonia. We have two nice houses that we both recently bought. And we both feel like we need to be home to take care of things.

My mom and Watson left this morning. It was really good seeing them. They are something else together, but I think my mom is happy.

Joel is set to leave Hawaii on August 2nd. I think he is going to go to Gainesville before he comes up here. I think we are both procrastinating on the state of affairs. He was supposed to move up here, but we have to see what will be the best for all of us . . .

I have a huge zit. I always break out when I change climates or stay somewhere unfamiliar for an extended amount of time. I wish I had a whole bunch of little cute zits like Jason so I could have the satisfaction of popping them. But no. I usually get those zits that are underneath the skin so far that you end up gouging a hole in your face before ever getting anything out of them. I am very happy he lets me pop his zits. It is like bubble wrap. And we all love bubble wrap.

I want to go on a weekend trip soon - to get away and relax. It was nice seeing family, but it is a little different than taking a vacation.

It is horribly hot today. I hope we can get the cat door in next weekend. I dislike air conditioning the garage.

Latest Comment . . . and Update

"Kim is right! Don't leave us hanging, girlfriend! We know what (who) is keeping you busy and away from your blog. We just want to know more about him. What the heck are you guys doing? Are you happy? Are you smiling? It's okay to tell us where you've been." -- Anonymous

Okay, I am not quite sure what I should do. See, Jason is a lot more private than I am about, well, everything. I would like to tell more, but things are new. I don't want to say anything that would make him uncomfortable. I gave him rights to post on my blog so maybe he will take the opportunity to introduce himself.

I just woke up from a nap. I love naps. Tony is downstairs picking peppers. (Peter Piper, I can't help but to think that every time that's said.) I can smell the spices.

I am taking a break from classes second summer, but I am working pretty much full time. Jason has been helping me a lot to get some of the things done around the house that I want done. Full time classes start mid-August, but I am not sure if I am going to keep working part time or just do the teaching assistantship. Amy is staying with me until the end of August, and she is a really nice girl. I have been working on a project for Wachovia through UNCC. The profs made a presentation on it last week and said it went well. I am not sure what that means. It could mean that they don't need Su and I anymore. Or it could mean that they have even more work for us. I want to post pictures of the house soon. However, I want to do some painting first. I don't really have much on the walls. I am trying to see if I can get in a trip to San Francisco at the beginning of August. I need to start planning soon. It is hard to figure out when the best time to talk to my boss about this stuff will be.

And, that's it for now. I leave Kentucky for home tomorrow.

Hugs,
Pam

Full Tummy

We went out to eat at an Argentine place tonight. It was good, but I am so full. I think a certain level of fustration is bound to happen when you get five people together for the day. Today was not an exception.

Muhammed sent me a picture of him and Lou today. I am not positive that it was Lou, but that made the most sense to me.

I kept falling asleep in the back seat of the car today. Classic Pam. A long road trip - meaning over half an hour - and I am out.

We went to the Maker's Mark Whiskey Bourbun Distillery today. I got to dip my own bottle. We also went to an antique shop today. I spent the whole time looking for Marilyn Monroe, Coca-Cola, NASCAR, old signs . . . I don't know much about antiques. What determines if something old is going to be considered antique versus junk?

I guess I have a lot on my mind tonight. I have a lot to do once I get home. But there is always more to do.

I am going to hang out with everyone a little before hitting the air mattress.

G'night.

Louisville, KY

Here I am. Kim chastised me for not updating my blog in a while. Mom and her boyfriend Watson (he actually goes by the nickname for Richard, but I can't bring myself to call him that) drove us to Kim and Tony's today. Boy, is he a grumpy driver. I definitely don't miss living around smoker's. I feel like I am going to live a year less than before just because of the 8 hour car ride up here.

So, I look out my back door and there was my next door neighbor Mr. Ferguson trimming my corkscrew willow. Jason makes fun of me because I always have random people coming into my life. I figure every friend was once a stranger, so I enjoy meeting new people. Muhammed, my 6'9'' muslim friend - Pete my 40 something English friend - a date with an occassion NFL football player - no roommate one day and Amy the next. A good ol' country boy with a massive NASCAR collection . . . it's all good. That is what we were put here for. God wanted us to be here for one another, not to glorify ourselves.

What is worse - having loved too many people or having slept with too many people? Say you have slept with 15 people and have loved them all - or you have never loved anyone before and slept with the same amount of people. Is there a difference between casual sex and casual love? This is just a generic thought.

I feel blah today - and fat. I need to have a mini diet after taking this trip. Kim and Tony are the epicurians of the family, so I know there is a lot of food in store for my near future.

Mom brought my bike and hammock from Florida so I am excited about that. I'll have to set them up when I get back home.

Ann is in Las Vegas starting her new life with Rick. Kenny is still dating Valerie last time I talked to him. Pedro and Jamie are getting married in November. Life goes on. It is amazing how much can change in such little time.

I am worried about my friend Chip. He is a kidney dialysis patient and has to live with his parents. He really wants to have a woman to share his life with, but it is hard to find someone who understands his situation. I wish I had the answer for him. I know how hard it is to be alone and how depressing things can get when you are in an unhappy situation. I hate feeling helpless and unable to make things better. All I can do is ask God to help because He can accomplish anything.

I enjoy reading my anonymous comments. You are always welcomed to introduce yourselves. I am just a friend you haven't met yet.

G'night.

Pam

Lunch Time

I didn't even check my e-mail once I got home last night. Very unlike me. I am at work right now on my lunch break. I imagine this work environment is a lot different than most people's work environments. Right now, I am in a cube farm. The lights are off in the office. No one is talking. I feel like it is nap time.

My mom is going to be coming up on Wednesday. I am a little disappointed that she doesn't want to spend more time in Charlotte, but I am glad she will at least get to see where I live. She is going to bring up my hammock and bike too.

I get off of work at 4:30 PM today. I was thinking about staying a little later, but I decided I rather go home. I might have to make an excursion from I-85 exit 46B to exit 20, so I may need the extra time. I won't like driving it during rush hour.

Scuro was sooo cute last night. She was all purring and cuddling with us. At one point, she found one of her mice and was playing with it in the bathroom. It was like she was a kitten again. Ra snorted all night, like usual.

I have cleaned up my office and garage, so I am feeling pretty organized right now. The next step is to paint some of those walls! Colors I have chosen so far: Calico, Sunwashed Clay, Bear Claw, Cracker Bitz, Almond Oil, and Oatmeal. I picked two greens for my bedroom, but I don't remember the names.

People keep saying how surprising it is that I keep a blog and "just put it all out there." Well, I guess I am not a very private person. However, I have to admit there are some things I don't share, mostly to protect other people. I'm me, and I'm okay with that.

I think I will have cookies for dessert.

:-Pam

Woman

Church was a little hard to swallow today. I do believe that a woman should serve her busband and raise her children. However, I don't think that means she can't have a career and that the husband should require her to be subservient.

Anyway, I don't really have much planned for today. My mom is coming later in the week, and I am going with her to Kentucky next weekend. Good thing Amy loves the cats; she is going to look after them while I am gone. I am not looking forward to the trip because I know my mom and her boyfriend are going to smoke along the way. I am almost tempted to just drive myself, but that would be a waste of money.

I am a little sleepy. Maybe I will take a little nap in the papasan chair. I need to check my work e-mail in a bit to see if Tanu responded to the work I did yesterday.

I think I am going to try to clean out the garage some today as well.

Home Life

I am done with work-work today. I am also done with school work. I need to clean up my office still. I didn't sleep very well last night. I cooked dinner yesterday. I made stuffed apple pork sausage pork chops, asparagus, and roasted potatoes. I also made a shephard's pie for later in the week.

I am about to move this bookshelf across the room in a minute, but I don't think I am going to be very successful at it.

(Later in the Day)

I salvaged the day pretty well. I cleaned up my office for the most part. It is almost in working order. I filed away all the paper work that I heaped up since I moved out of my old house. Muhammed came over and helped me move my bookshelf. He also fixed my lamp and speakers. He came over because he wanted to ask me questions about my favorite books - The Chronicles of Narnia. He is writing a paper on C.S. Lewis. I am excited that Disney is coming out with a movie. They better do a good job.

I ate the leftover pork chop for dinner today, so I still have a whole shephard's pie in the fridge. Where is Kim when you need her?

I wrote some pretty cool queries today. SQL programming is fun and relaxing. I bought a filing cabinet to match my desk and bookshelves. I also bought an office chair. My office is pretty well set up now. It probably won't get painted for a while though.

Amy and Dominque hung out here for a while. Amy is nice and her friend seems nice too. Although I am not used to having a roommate, it is kind of nice having someone else in the house. It gets lonely sometimes. And when someone else is in the house, you don't even have to be in the same room to feel not quite so alone.

Irony: Pam (Christian) and Muhammed (Muslim) were spinning a dradle earlier this evening. I thought that was funny. It was an old dradle that made its way to being a cat toy. I think I inherited it from Ryan's family. His mom's side of the family was Jewish. Sometimes Ra carries it around in his mouth.

I am going to bed soon because I want to make sure I get up in time to go to church. I missed it last week. I don't think it is a requirement to go to church, but I do think it is good for my soul.

Sweet dreams, everyone.

Deep Breath

Life is good. I have lots of friends who love me. I have two great cats. I have a nice house. God is good to me. I have money in the bank and plans for the future. I am sitting in my office looking at a peaceful backyard. I have food in the refridgerator. My mom is coming to see me. I am a good person. I have a lot of opportunities. Some think I am beautiful and some think I am smart. My work values me. My professors respect my education and accomplishments. I am getting along better with my family. I moved here all by myself and am doing well. There are people who value having me in their lives. I can make people laugh and smile. People value my opinion and advice. I am not doing anything bad on unethical. I want to make the world a better place. I have the freedom to do things other people might not be able to do. I'm getting my life organized. I don't want to be with someone who treats me badly anymore. I don't want to think about him anymore. I know I spent way too many months missing someone who didn't exist. Why bother? Just chalk it up to getting hurt by someone who didn't care enough about me. Just a waste of time. I am young. There are so many waterfalls to see. I am sitting in an air conditioned room in the summer time. The sun is shining. I have done well. Maybe I will try to make it to the gym today.

Pictures

Oh, here are some pictures from when Kenny came to visit.

Time in a Bottle

Seems like there is never enough time in a day. I am feeling pretty good today. I only work until 12:30 PM today, so I should be able to get some stuff done today. Here is my new work schedule:

Monday: 8:30 AM - 5:30 PM
Tuesday: 8:30 AM - 4 PM
Wednesday: 8:30 AM - 5:30 PM
Thursday: 8 AM - 5 PM (from home)
Friday: 8 AM - 12:30 PM (from home)

I am going to the chiropractor today and have a meeting on campus. I also have to get the plates changed on my car. I need to figure out where I have to go for that.

I am feeling a little anxious today. I am not quite sure why. I had everything going at an even keel (is that how it is spelled), and I guess I have all these things going on now that aren't completely under my control as to their outcome. I guess that is probably why I am a little anxious.

Blogs

We are now entering the land of blogs.

Remove the blog at #1 from the following list and bump every one up one place; add your blog's name in the #5 spot; link to each of the other blogs for the desired cross pollination effect.

1. the stories of a girl
2. Write on Right Now!
3. One Over-Caffeinated Mom
4. Blerg
5. Pam!

Next: select new friends to add to the pollen count. (Obviously no one is obligated to participate).

Muhammed Saboor
Pei_Jen Lin
Ryan Davis

(I don't know many bloggers!)

Then add your childhood memories.

1) I used to think the Flintstones lived in my mouth. That was how my mom got me to eat my vitamins.

2) I was a huge fan of breast feeding. I was actually talking and would say "mmm, Mommy" when I was hungry. My mom even bought me a pillow with breasts on it to try to ween me.

3) My dad loved playing Atari. He was really good at Space Invaders.

4) I had a white persian cat named Thomas. I also had a Sebastian. He was my black cat that I mostly grew up with. I love you Sebastian!

5) Kim and I used to play maniquin when we were bored at craft shows.

Cough, Cough, Cough

I was up coughing all night last night. I am glad I am working from home today.

Jason came over yesterday. He put together my coat rack (thanks for the suggestion) and hooked up my receiver and speakers. We ordered Chinese food for delivery and took a walk around the neighborhood.

Okay, back to work.

Blah

I am still sick. I am working from home today. It is kind of funny because I keep falling asleep. Then I will get an e-mail, my computer chimes and wakes me up.

I have 13 throw pillows in my living room. Isn't that awesome?

Amy (my new roomie) and I sat and talked for a while last night. You know all girls talk about are guys. And all guys talk about is sports. Funny how that works.

The replacement parts came in for my coat rack, so I am happy about that. I am going to get someone else to try to put it together this time because I don't think they will send me new parts again if I mess it up this time.

I am behind in laundry.

My thoughts are very fragmented today.

I need to call Tom.

Joel's birthday is coming up soon.

Since my desk is put together, I want to start organizing my office. I am going to buy a matching file cabinet.

Crazy, Beautiful World

Wow, a lot has happened since I last blogged. I have a roommate for two months. I got an A in my first class. I am going to drop the class I regsitered for this second half of the summer. I think I am going to focus on writing a paper with Dr. Prietula who just moved back to GA to teach at Emory. It is going to be a waste of time. I am seeing Jason. (Everyone else calls him Jay.) I am going to Kentucky with my mom and her boyfriend to see Kim and Tony in a few weeks. Kenny has a girlfriend. Ann has moved to Las Vegas. Joel is back in Hawaii. I have a cold and sound like a frog. I sold my old phone on eBay. I bought a cat door and a coat rack on eBay. I watched my first NASCAR race ever. I bought 4 dresses in the last 2 weeks. Pearl really needs a bath. And I am sleepy and need to go to bed.

So, how are my anonymous commenters doing?

I am catching up with my life and will get back with everyone soon.

Hugs,
Pam