I'm doing just fine, but I feel like I am not living up to my potential. I am meant for something more than this, but I don't know how to get there.
I am sleepy.
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
Tuesday, April 26, 2005
42
There is a Dave Matthews concert coming into town that I know someone who would love to go to it. However, I don't know where he is now since we lost touch. Just thought I would mention it.
Flag football was canceled today because it was a little rainy. I cleaned up the house. For the first time in my life, I got my hair re-cut. I was unhappy with my $30 hair cut, so I went and got it cut somewhere else for $13. The girl was really nice, and I am much happier with it now. We exchanged numbers because she is close to my age. It is cool; maybe I made a new friend.
I am listening to Norah Jones playing on my DVD player (since I don't have a CD player). I am going to go to bed soon so I am not sleepy tomorrow. I got approved to work from home on Monday so I can attend a meeting with some professors on campus.
On Friday, I am going to the Steven Curtis Chapman concert with the singles group at church. On Sunday, I am going to church then I am going to hang out with some of my girl friends. I think it is next Friday that I am going to go to the Alan Jackson concert.
I need to go to Home Depot tomorrow. Maybe I can make it before yoga.
Flag football was canceled today because it was a little rainy. I cleaned up the house. For the first time in my life, I got my hair re-cut. I was unhappy with my $30 hair cut, so I went and got it cut somewhere else for $13. The girl was really nice, and I am much happier with it now. We exchanged numbers because she is close to my age. It is cool; maybe I made a new friend.
I am listening to Norah Jones playing on my DVD player (since I don't have a CD player). I am going to go to bed soon so I am not sleepy tomorrow. I got approved to work from home on Monday so I can attend a meeting with some professors on campus.
On Friday, I am going to the Steven Curtis Chapman concert with the singles group at church. On Sunday, I am going to church then I am going to hang out with some of my girl friends. I think it is next Friday that I am going to go to the Alan Jackson concert.
I need to go to Home Depot tomorrow. Maybe I can make it before yoga.
Monday, April 25, 2005
Couch and Love Seat
I bought a couch and love seat today. I am a little worried that I won't like them once they get to my house. They kind of match Ra. Man, he is such a happy cat. He is sitting on my lap right now, looking up at me with closed eyes, and just purring his little heart out. Moments like these are worth cleaning a litter box.
My work really likes me. I talked to my boss today about my availability, and he said "sure, whenever you can get the time to work. We need good people." So unless something goes wrong, I should always be able to have work when I need it. I like it there. The people are really nice, and it is kinda fun.
I am going to be in Tampa the weekend of May 15th. I am going to fly in so I am really excited to be able to go back and see my friends. The only problem is that I won't have transportation since I will be flying. Kenny was sweet enough to even say that he would have let me borrow one of his cars had I known how to drive a stick . . . and he has ridden with me before!
Well, I missed going to the gym because I was off buying furniture. I told myself I was going to put in the pilates video when I got home so I better be true to my word.
Hugs,
Pam
My work really likes me. I talked to my boss today about my availability, and he said "sure, whenever you can get the time to work. We need good people." So unless something goes wrong, I should always be able to have work when I need it. I like it there. The people are really nice, and it is kinda fun.
I am going to be in Tampa the weekend of May 15th. I am going to fly in so I am really excited to be able to go back and see my friends. The only problem is that I won't have transportation since I will be flying. Kenny was sweet enough to even say that he would have let me borrow one of his cars had I known how to drive a stick . . . and he has ridden with me before!
Well, I missed going to the gym because I was off buying furniture. I told myself I was going to put in the pilates video when I got home so I better be true to my word.
Hugs,
Pam
Sunday, April 24, 2005
Windy Sunday
I went to church this morning then furniture shopping with Jessica. I bought a really expensive chair (actually a chair and a half is what they call it). I really hope that it is going to look good in my livingroom. I also found a couch that I like. I am going to go by the store and buy it tomorrow.
We bought a cabinet that goes behind the toilet. It had to have taken hours for us to put that stupid thing together. The cabinet doors are uneven, and we couldn't find the screws to put on the cabinet handles. I am going to coax Jason to come over sometime this week to help fix it. I think I can convince him by cooking dinner. Men are pretty easy to impress. Good thing I know how to cook!
I have work tomorrow. The weekend seemed really short, but I did enjoy it. I made a lot of new friends. Muhammed is sooo funny. He is 6'9''! Jackie, Jessica, and some other girls and I are going to have a girl's night out next Sunday.
I have pilates tomorrow night. I wish there were a gym closer to my house. Once classes start, I am going to check out the gym on campus. It is really nice, but I don't know how crowded it will be. And once I am a student the membership at Peak Fitness is only $25/month. We'll see.
Ra is being cute and cuddly at the end of the bed. Scuro is probably loafing somewhere upstairs.
I don't want to take pictures of my house until I get some more furniture and paint. Woo hoo!
I miss my friends in Florida. Ann just got a miniature pincher. Kenny calls me a lot which makes me feel good. Although I am a little jealous of Pedro and Jamie, I am very happy that they found each other and are getting married. I wonder how everyone is doing. It is hard to keep tabs on everyone with everything that has been going on.
Just know I love you!
Pam
We bought a cabinet that goes behind the toilet. It had to have taken hours for us to put that stupid thing together. The cabinet doors are uneven, and we couldn't find the screws to put on the cabinet handles. I am going to coax Jason to come over sometime this week to help fix it. I think I can convince him by cooking dinner. Men are pretty easy to impress. Good thing I know how to cook!
I have work tomorrow. The weekend seemed really short, but I did enjoy it. I made a lot of new friends. Muhammed is sooo funny. He is 6'9''! Jackie, Jessica, and some other girls and I are going to have a girl's night out next Sunday.
I have pilates tomorrow night. I wish there were a gym closer to my house. Once classes start, I am going to check out the gym on campus. It is really nice, but I don't know how crowded it will be. And once I am a student the membership at Peak Fitness is only $25/month. We'll see.
Ra is being cute and cuddly at the end of the bed. Scuro is probably loafing somewhere upstairs.
I don't want to take pictures of my house until I get some more furniture and paint. Woo hoo!
I miss my friends in Florida. Ann just got a miniature pincher. Kenny calls me a lot which makes me feel good. Although I am a little jealous of Pedro and Jamie, I am very happy that they found each other and are getting married. I wonder how everyone is doing. It is hard to keep tabs on everyone with everything that has been going on.
Just know I love you!
Pam
Saturday, April 23, 2005
Pam Spam
Okay, I got some off-line feedback from Bryan about my Blog. He said that it seemed like I attributed too much to God and not enough to my friends. It some ways I disagree because I think God has brought all these great people into my life. However, I do agree that I need to let the people I love know how much they mean to me. Here is a short list:
1) Tausha - She has been a good friend of mine since 4th grade (maybe 5th). Although we have grown apart over the years, she has still always been there for me. She rode with me to Gainesville when I went to live with Lisa. During some of the hardest times in my life, she has comforted me over the phone.
2) Tom - Tom and I dated in high school and even though I broke up with him, he has still been there for me over the years. It seems like everytime I went through a break up, he was there to stroke my hair and read me "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe." Even though he swears that he isn't going to keep doing it, he always does.
3) Kenny - We met after Sean and I broke up. In a lot of ways, we thinki very much a like. The best thing Kenny has ever done for me is being there to talk and needing me to talk with him. He reminds me that I make sense and deserve to have what I want.
4) Ann - I have never been great at having female friends, but I think Ann and I will always keep in touch. We are both type A personality women so it is great to have someone who shares a lot of the same viewpoints that I do. She let me stay with her after I sold my house.
5) Pedro - I met him at my first job out of school, and he helped me through the transition. He has always given me a couch to sleep on if I needed it, and he fixed my computer when it crashed (very important).
6) Joel - He has always been there for me even if he is stationed on another continent. He loves me for me, and he never lets me forget that.
7) Dave - When Ryan and I broke up, Dave drove all the way to Atlanta to keep me company. He has made a lot of last minute trips to be there for me when I needed him. Recently he drove me to Charlotte on his Spring Break to help me find a house.
8) Liz - Half the time, when we call each other, one of us is crying. Some friends would get mad if you only called them when something was wrong, but we understand how busy life can get and will always be there for one another in those times of need.
9) Stephanie - She moved in next door right before the hurricanes hit so we went through the hell together. She calls me magic. She is really laid back, and she always calls to check up on me.
10) Wayne - He gave me my first Bible right when I needed it. I had called him to make sure Ryan was all right when we broke up, but he heard that I needed a friend in my voice. So he came over and talked to me even though we had never really been friends. He gave me his own personal Bible which I still read from to this day.
And, again, I say that is a short list. I have been blessed with so many great people in my life. I guess one thing about me is that I always search for the good in people. I believe we all have good in us, and I have the strong belief that we can all make that good come out above any of the badness in us.
Anyhow, I made a lot of new friends tonight. I got some people together, and we went bowling. I love people. I think people can be so beautiful. I am amazed at how different we all are. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Hugs,
Pam
1) Tausha - She has been a good friend of mine since 4th grade (maybe 5th). Although we have grown apart over the years, she has still always been there for me. She rode with me to Gainesville when I went to live with Lisa. During some of the hardest times in my life, she has comforted me over the phone.
2) Tom - Tom and I dated in high school and even though I broke up with him, he has still been there for me over the years. It seems like everytime I went through a break up, he was there to stroke my hair and read me "The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe." Even though he swears that he isn't going to keep doing it, he always does.
3) Kenny - We met after Sean and I broke up. In a lot of ways, we thinki very much a like. The best thing Kenny has ever done for me is being there to talk and needing me to talk with him. He reminds me that I make sense and deserve to have what I want.
4) Ann - I have never been great at having female friends, but I think Ann and I will always keep in touch. We are both type A personality women so it is great to have someone who shares a lot of the same viewpoints that I do. She let me stay with her after I sold my house.
5) Pedro - I met him at my first job out of school, and he helped me through the transition. He has always given me a couch to sleep on if I needed it, and he fixed my computer when it crashed (very important).
6) Joel - He has always been there for me even if he is stationed on another continent. He loves me for me, and he never lets me forget that.
7) Dave - When Ryan and I broke up, Dave drove all the way to Atlanta to keep me company. He has made a lot of last minute trips to be there for me when I needed him. Recently he drove me to Charlotte on his Spring Break to help me find a house.
8) Liz - Half the time, when we call each other, one of us is crying. Some friends would get mad if you only called them when something was wrong, but we understand how busy life can get and will always be there for one another in those times of need.
9) Stephanie - She moved in next door right before the hurricanes hit so we went through the hell together. She calls me magic. She is really laid back, and she always calls to check up on me.
10) Wayne - He gave me my first Bible right when I needed it. I had called him to make sure Ryan was all right when we broke up, but he heard that I needed a friend in my voice. So he came over and talked to me even though we had never really been friends. He gave me his own personal Bible which I still read from to this day.
And, again, I say that is a short list. I have been blessed with so many great people in my life. I guess one thing about me is that I always search for the good in people. I believe we all have good in us, and I have the strong belief that we can all make that good come out above any of the badness in us.
Anyhow, I made a lot of new friends tonight. I got some people together, and we went bowling. I love people. I think people can be so beautiful. I am amazed at how different we all are. I wouldn't have it any other way.
Hugs,
Pam
Thursday, April 21, 2005
Another day in the life of Pam
I went over to my ex-roommate's tonight to say good bye (Rebecca is going back home from her internship). Marlo, the girl I rented the room from, also came over. I bought a nice dish set, some stainless steel pots, other miscellaneous stuff, and a breakfast nook table for only $205! I think it was a pretty good deal. I don't think she could have gotten as much money somewhere else, and I wouldn't have been able to buy it that cheaply somewhere else.
Dave, I owe you an e-mail, I know!
I worked late on Monday. Tuesday, I played flag football. Wednesday, I went to yoga. My butt hurts! I am glad that we get to dress casual now that we moved to the new building at work. I like dressing up, but I am not that fond of business casual for work. Way to go jeans!
I am liking my house a lot. I am happiest with my bedroom and kitchen right now. The dining room table looks really good with the hardwood floors. Yay!
I am all registered for summer and fall classes. I am taking 3 credits first summer and 2 credits second summer. In the fall, I am taking 10 credits. UNCC has agreed to waive tuition for three years! So that means, I am going to school for free.
I think God must be testing me. Everything is going so completely well. I am very thankful, but at the same time, the one thing I want most in my life isn't there. I get this bitter sweet feeling inside. For the most part, I am happy, but I know that I could be happier if Sean came home. Sigh.
Maybe I will meet a tall, handsome, smart, rich, sweet, Christian, responsible, young, and perfect-for-me guy, and I will realize that God had a much better plan for me than I had for myself. :-) Say a prayer.
I better get to bed! More hugs to you! Here is a picture from the building I work:
Dave, I owe you an e-mail, I know!
I worked late on Monday. Tuesday, I played flag football. Wednesday, I went to yoga. My butt hurts! I am glad that we get to dress casual now that we moved to the new building at work. I like dressing up, but I am not that fond of business casual for work. Way to go jeans!
I am liking my house a lot. I am happiest with my bedroom and kitchen right now. The dining room table looks really good with the hardwood floors. Yay!
I am all registered for summer and fall classes. I am taking 3 credits first summer and 2 credits second summer. In the fall, I am taking 10 credits. UNCC has agreed to waive tuition for three years! So that means, I am going to school for free.
I think God must be testing me. Everything is going so completely well. I am very thankful, but at the same time, the one thing I want most in my life isn't there. I get this bitter sweet feeling inside. For the most part, I am happy, but I know that I could be happier if Sean came home. Sigh.
Maybe I will meet a tall, handsome, smart, rich, sweet, Christian, responsible, young, and perfect-for-me guy, and I will realize that God had a much better plan for me than I had for myself. :-) Say a prayer.
I better get to bed! More hugs to you! Here is a picture from the building I work:
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
So Much to Do!
I have been working and unpacking. I got the rest of the stuff from the apartment yesterday. I bought a new phone (yay) and changed my number 704-293-8978. Does anyone want to buy my i500 Samsung Palm OS phone?
I need to get to bed soon, so I am making this short. Hugs to everyone. Anything new going on with anyone else?
Ann is moving to Las Vegas! Way to go, Ann!
Pedro and Jamie are getting married in November!
Rebecca and Nick are closing on their house!
Kim and Tony are moving into their house soon!
Dave is graduating soon - when was that again?
Love you,
Pam
I need to get to bed soon, so I am making this short. Hugs to everyone. Anything new going on with anyone else?
Ann is moving to Las Vegas! Way to go, Ann!
Pedro and Jamie are getting married in November!
Rebecca and Nick are closing on their house!
Kim and Tony are moving into their house soon!
Dave is graduating soon - when was that again?
Love you,
Pam
Monday, April 18, 2005
Home Sweet Home
It isn't home until the cats move in. I moved the cats to the house today after church. It is official now! After church, I went to lunch with a friend of mine named Jonathan. He is from Raleigh. He helped me move the cats from the apartment to my house. I spent a few hours unpacking very slowly, but then my friend Jason came over and helped me unpack. He was great! We got probably about 80% of the boxes unpacked tonight. After Jason left, Jessica came over. I helped her put together an Excel graph that she needed for work. I was going to go to the Care Group at church, but I ended up cancelling because I wanted to get unpacked as much as possible.
The house is looking good. I am looking forward to getting to Home Depot and getting some paint for these walls! The cool thing is that there is plenty of extra room. God has been really great to me.
The house is looking good. I am looking forward to getting to Home Depot and getting some paint for these walls! The cool thing is that there is plenty of extra room. God has been really great to me.
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Quick, Somebody teach me how to use the fireplace!
I closed on my house Friday. Everything went off without a hitch. Four guys from work and etc. came over on Friday night and helped me unload the POD. After that, we went to the Comedy Zone. I also went to meet with my advisor on Friday. We planned out my course schedule for the PhD program. I am excited!
Today, three guys from church and about 5 kids from church came over to help finish unloading the POD. The POD is empty now, but I still have planty of boxes to unpack. Rebecca, my friend from church, came over and we had lunch after the unloading. This evening Bert, a friend from work, and I went to the Reba McIntire concert. It was awesome, but it was so cold outside that it took a good ten minutes once I got into the car for my toes to defrost. I was afraid I was going to get frost bite!
I sold the stacked washer and dryer to one of the guys from church. The house came with a nice full-sized set. I love the pond in the backyard. After I took a shower and got dressed, I went and sat on the back deck and brushed my hair. It is really nice and peaceful here. Very quiet.
The cats are still at the apartment, but they will be transported tomorrow. I am going to church in the morning. Then I am having lunch with a new friend. And in the evening, I am going to one of the church's care groups for a pot luck dinner.
My work computer is in my trunk, so I am going to try to close one CR (change request) this weekend. I am going to work a half day on Monday. I am going to get my hair cut and some more unpacking done.
I was offered some summer work to do through UNCC that I should be able to do while I am still working at my current job. I will probably start cutting back on my hours when my summer class starts.
Concerts I have been to:
1) Monkees
2) Beach Boys
3) Trisha Yearwood
4) Bruce Hornsby
5) Norah Jones
6) Reba McIntire, Brad Paisley, and Joe Nichols
Fun, fun!
Today, three guys from church and about 5 kids from church came over to help finish unloading the POD. The POD is empty now, but I still have planty of boxes to unpack. Rebecca, my friend from church, came over and we had lunch after the unloading. This evening Bert, a friend from work, and I went to the Reba McIntire concert. It was awesome, but it was so cold outside that it took a good ten minutes once I got into the car for my toes to defrost. I was afraid I was going to get frost bite!
I sold the stacked washer and dryer to one of the guys from church. The house came with a nice full-sized set. I love the pond in the backyard. After I took a shower and got dressed, I went and sat on the back deck and brushed my hair. It is really nice and peaceful here. Very quiet.
The cats are still at the apartment, but they will be transported tomorrow. I am going to church in the morning. Then I am having lunch with a new friend. And in the evening, I am going to one of the church's care groups for a pot luck dinner.
My work computer is in my trunk, so I am going to try to close one CR (change request) this weekend. I am going to work a half day on Monday. I am going to get my hair cut and some more unpacking done.
I was offered some summer work to do through UNCC that I should be able to do while I am still working at my current job. I will probably start cutting back on my hours when my summer class starts.
Concerts I have been to:
1) Monkees
2) Beach Boys
3) Trisha Yearwood
4) Bruce Hornsby
5) Norah Jones
6) Reba McIntire, Brad Paisley, and Joe Nichols
Fun, fun!
Thursday, April 14, 2005
The Impossible
God, you can make the impossible possible. Only You. I pray that you remind us of this everyday. In fact, I pray for our prayers to extend beyond the capabilities of what we think are possible so that we can profess our faith and trust in You. Let us pray that those who are terminally ill be healed. Let us pray for those who have made poor decisions in their lives be given another and another chance. Let us pray for immorality to go away and for every child to be free from sexual predators. Let us pray for lost loves to be recovered. Let us pray for enemies to become friends. Let us pray that Your coming will be in our lifetime. Let us pray for the impossible. I pray for those who don't know you to find you tomorrow. I pray for good to come from disasters like 9/11 and the recent tsunamis (can't spell) so that they aren't just random occurrences of devastation. God, I can't make any of these things happen. I can't do anything without you. I need you so desperately. Take care of this world because we are lost without You. Through Jesus Christ I pray, Amen.
Work, Work, Work
I am still at work, but I am waiting for this program to compile and run. Slow computers for the contractors! I don't have internet at the apartment right now, but that is okay because I move into my house tomorrow. Everything is ready to go!!
Some guys from work and various places are going to help me move everything out of my POD. I am very fortunate meet meet such nice people. I really enjoy my job. They really like me here so hopefully they may let me work here part time. I ma not sure what my schedule is going to be like in the PhD program though.
Take it easy,
Pam
Some guys from work and various places are going to help me move everything out of my POD. I am very fortunate meet meet such nice people. I really enjoy my job. They really like me here so hopefully they may let me work here part time. I ma not sure what my schedule is going to be like in the PhD program though.
Take it easy,
Pam
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
Bed Time!
I worked until 10:30 PM tonight. I think it is weird that I don't really mind. I have realized that doing something you like makes a big difference. I think it also helps knowing that this is only temporary.
Irony:
-I have a great sports car, but I hate to drive
-I am in the best shape I have ever been in and have finally gotten rid of all my ugly underwear, but I don't have a boyfriend to appreciate it
-When I have money to spend, I don't have the time to spend it
I am sure there are more, but I am a sleepy head.
Ode to Ryan:
I decided to dedicate this message to my ex-boyfriend Ryan. Why? Because I just typed the word sleepyhead, and it made me think of him. Ryan is a really sweet guy even though he tries really hard to be tough on people. He is a really great programmer, especially graphics. He once did this graphic of "Pam" on a pedastal. I thought it was funny. I still have some inside jokes that no one gets because Ryan and I made them up together. I think we had the same geeky sense of humor a lot of the time. Ryan is much cuter and smarter and all around a nicer guy than his older brother, so I am not quite sure why is looks up to him so much. Some of my favorite memories: When David and I broke up, Ryan offered to let me stay with him until I found a place (it happened to be at his parent's house though). I would have nightmares and go into his room in the morning. We had been friends for sometime, and he would just open his arms wide up as if to say "come here, and everything will be all right." The song Open Arms always reminds me of Ryan. I don't think I really knew how to love someone when Ryan and I were together. After I got to know God better, I think I learned a lot more about loving. However, I did love Ryan very much, and I still do. I think he had a lot more growing up to do, and I am glad that we still keep in touch. I often wonder how things would have been if we worked things out. I care a lot about Ryan, but I don't think I could ever stand dealing with his family again. Boy, that would not be fun for me. I worry about him because I think he drinks a little too much, but I know he is smart enough to not do something (too) stupid. I want him to find a good girl. He is kind of shy and not the smoothest when it comes to the opposite sex, but he does have a lot to offer. He is one of the smartest guys I have ever met.
:-) Sweet dreams.
Irony:
-I have a great sports car, but I hate to drive
-I am in the best shape I have ever been in and have finally gotten rid of all my ugly underwear, but I don't have a boyfriend to appreciate it
-When I have money to spend, I don't have the time to spend it
I am sure there are more, but I am a sleepy head.
Ode to Ryan:
I decided to dedicate this message to my ex-boyfriend Ryan. Why? Because I just typed the word sleepyhead, and it made me think of him. Ryan is a really sweet guy even though he tries really hard to be tough on people. He is a really great programmer, especially graphics. He once did this graphic of "Pam" on a pedastal. I thought it was funny. I still have some inside jokes that no one gets because Ryan and I made them up together. I think we had the same geeky sense of humor a lot of the time. Ryan is much cuter and smarter and all around a nicer guy than his older brother, so I am not quite sure why is looks up to him so much. Some of my favorite memories: When David and I broke up, Ryan offered to let me stay with him until I found a place (it happened to be at his parent's house though). I would have nightmares and go into his room in the morning. We had been friends for sometime, and he would just open his arms wide up as if to say "come here, and everything will be all right." The song Open Arms always reminds me of Ryan. I don't think I really knew how to love someone when Ryan and I were together. After I got to know God better, I think I learned a lot more about loving. However, I did love Ryan very much, and I still do. I think he had a lot more growing up to do, and I am glad that we still keep in touch. I often wonder how things would have been if we worked things out. I care a lot about Ryan, but I don't think I could ever stand dealing with his family again. Boy, that would not be fun for me. I worry about him because I think he drinks a little too much, but I know he is smart enough to not do something (too) stupid. I want him to find a good girl. He is kind of shy and not the smoothest when it comes to the opposite sex, but he does have a lot to offer. He is one of the smartest guys I have ever met.
:-) Sweet dreams.
Monday, April 11, 2005
Quote of the Day
Okay, I was told that this was one of my famous Pam* comments. In context, I was talking about if I should play flag football again tomorrow: "I never claimed I could catch or throw . . . except for in code."
Har Har Har. Anyway . . .
I am going to pilates in about half an hour. I am excited that I am going to be closing on my house on Friday. It will be neat to start unpacking all my stuff. My cats and I have gotten very used to being mobile though.
I had hot Krispy Kreme donuts yesterday. I was happy.
Wednesday and Thursday work, Friday house closing, Saturday move in and Reba concert, Sunday church. This will be a busy week!
Later!
I'm back - not enough for a completely new post though. Some guy stopped me when I was coming out of the gym and asked me for gas money. When I first responded to him, he said "thank God, you speak English." I was like of course I speak English! Do I look like I wouldn't speak English. He said yeah. I thought that was funny.
Har Har Har. Anyway . . .
I am going to pilates in about half an hour. I am excited that I am going to be closing on my house on Friday. It will be neat to start unpacking all my stuff. My cats and I have gotten very used to being mobile though.
I had hot Krispy Kreme donuts yesterday. I was happy.
Wednesday and Thursday work, Friday house closing, Saturday move in and Reba concert, Sunday church. This will be a busy week!
Later!
I'm back - not enough for a completely new post though. Some guy stopped me when I was coming out of the gym and asked me for gas money. When I first responded to him, he said "thank God, you speak English." I was like of course I speak English! Do I look like I wouldn't speak English. He said yeah. I thought that was funny.
Sunday, April 10, 2005
Saturday
I worked from 10:30 AM to 10 PM today. I like the people at work. Although they can get a little rowdy, they are always nice when it comes down to it.
I got awesome news today. I was awarded the TIAA-CREF Fellowship which they allow give to one PhD IT student. It is a $25,000 fellowship for my first year of PhD studies. Free money to go to school! That rocks! Woo hoo!
God is good.
I am hanging out with my friend Jessica tomorrow. Hopefully we can catch up with my friend Jason later in the day. He is a big NASCAR fan, so we don't want to interrupt him during his race.
Kenny is at a mid-life crisis party tonight. I am wondering if he was able to find the grey hair dye like he set out to do this morning. I really want to see pictures of this!
Sleepy as all heck, so I am going to bed.
Missing my friends,
Pam
I got awesome news today. I was awarded the TIAA-CREF Fellowship which they allow give to one PhD IT student. It is a $25,000 fellowship for my first year of PhD studies. Free money to go to school! That rocks! Woo hoo!
God is good.
I am hanging out with my friend Jessica tomorrow. Hopefully we can catch up with my friend Jason later in the day. He is a big NASCAR fan, so we don't want to interrupt him during his race.
Kenny is at a mid-life crisis party tonight. I am wondering if he was able to find the grey hair dye like he set out to do this morning. I really want to see pictures of this!
Sleepy as all heck, so I am going to bed.
Missing my friends,
Pam
Friday, April 08, 2005
Sleepy Head
I went to Cabo Fish Taco with Rebecca (my roommate) and some of her friends tonight. Their specialty is Cod tacos. However, I has the steak rolls which were really good too.
I am very sleepy since I have been working late this week again. I am probably going to bed in a few minutes. I am working again tomorrow. I told them I wouldn't work this Sunday though, so I am going out with some friends.
I have called and set up all my utilities to be turned on at my house - all except the security alarm which I will have to do a little more research.
The last fews months, I have been observing people. It has been very enlightening. I have learned a lot more about the dynamic between men and women. I have realized that I am a pretty typical woman. I mean, I never have spent much time with women (most of my friends are guys), so I just thought I was pretty weird (compared to the guys). I have been spending a lot more time with other women lately, and there have been so many "Oh my God, I know exactly what you mean" moments. It is kinda funny that I am just now figuring this out.
I have decided that people in Charlotte are a lot more conservative and relationship oriented than people in Florida. Most people are married. There are a lot of pregnant women in the office. And most of the guys who are single don't seem to be happily proclaimed as bachelors. It is kind of an interesting change. People also seem to get married a lot earlier, and it doesn't seem like they consider that a bad thing.
It's my bed time. Sweet dreams.
I am very sleepy since I have been working late this week again. I am probably going to bed in a few minutes. I am working again tomorrow. I told them I wouldn't work this Sunday though, so I am going out with some friends.
I have called and set up all my utilities to be turned on at my house - all except the security alarm which I will have to do a little more research.
The last fews months, I have been observing people. It has been very enlightening. I have learned a lot more about the dynamic between men and women. I have realized that I am a pretty typical woman. I mean, I never have spent much time with women (most of my friends are guys), so I just thought I was pretty weird (compared to the guys). I have been spending a lot more time with other women lately, and there have been so many "Oh my God, I know exactly what you mean" moments. It is kinda funny that I am just now figuring this out.
I have decided that people in Charlotte are a lot more conservative and relationship oriented than people in Florida. Most people are married. There are a lot of pregnant women in the office. And most of the guys who are single don't seem to be happily proclaimed as bachelors. It is kind of an interesting change. People also seem to get married a lot earlier, and it doesn't seem like they consider that a bad thing.
It's my bed time. Sweet dreams.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
No Internet!!??
Last night I didn't have any internet connectivity once I got to the apartment. I have a sneaking suspicion that the girl I am subleasing my apartment from didn't pay the bill. My roommate got a notice that she didn't pay the rent this month. The apartment people said they would evict us in 10 days if she doesn't pay. I told my roommate Rebecca that she could just move in with me then if that is the case because I close on my house April 15th.
I got transfered to another high priority project at work. That means I get more free lunches. :-) Today is supposed to be tru business casual day which means panty hose for women and closed-toe shoes. Well, I am breaking that dress code rule. Fridays are casual day. I want to go shopping for some new clothes soon. It will probably have to wait until Sunday since I have to work late the rest of the week and Saturday.
Good morning!
Pam
I got transfered to another high priority project at work. That means I get more free lunches. :-) Today is supposed to be tru business casual day which means panty hose for women and closed-toe shoes. Well, I am breaking that dress code rule. Fridays are casual day. I want to go shopping for some new clothes soon. It will probably have to wait until Sunday since I have to work late the rest of the week and Saturday.
Good morning!
Pam
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
Pam, The Wide Receiver
I played flag football with some of my co-workers tonight. It was fun, and I think I am marginally better at it than I am at softball. However, I had never seen flag football before. They made us wear these funky little belts. I, myself, started hula dancing. I had fun though, and everyone was nice.
I must reiterate, I like nice people.
The weather here has been a little chilly but nice. I have been able to ride around with the top down on the convertible. Of course, I might turn on the heat sometimes as well.
I am going to be crazy tired tomorrow. The game didn't start until 10 PM, so I am a little late getting to bed.
G'night!
I must reiterate, I like nice people.
The weather here has been a little chilly but nice. I have been able to ride around with the top down on the convertible. Of course, I might turn on the heat sometimes as well.
I am going to be crazy tired tomorrow. The game didn't start until 10 PM, so I am a little late getting to bed.
G'night!
Monday, April 04, 2005
Alas, My Flintstones are Gone
Flintstone vitamins are yummy. Sadly, I finished my last one today. I must get more soon!
I worked about 9 hours today. I went out to lunch with some of the guys. Working in the IT field really degenders a female. They just treat me like one of the guys. It is kinda funny. After work, I went to the gym and to the grocery store. It felt good to work out. I tried to buy healthy food at the store. I probably didn't do the best, but I think I did all right.
I am excited that the closing of my house is coming up soon. I need to start calling the utility companies to have all that stuff taken care of. I have some people who have offered to help me move the stuff from the POD to the house.
Let's see . . . any other updates?
I think there might be a mistake with my car insurance. The premium was about $500 or so, so I thought that it was going to be about the same as it was in Florida. However, I got the bill, and it split the payments out over a YEAR. What a minute - does that mean it is HALF of what I am used to? Sheesh. My payment went from about $125 to $45 dollars a month. Home owners insurance went from $900 to $500. Flood insurance was $800 or so and has gone down to nothing! So the cost of living is lower, I am closer to the mountains, there are more IT jobs, and the pay rates are comparable. Oh yeah, although they have hurricanes here, I am sure that I won't find people canoeing down my street any time soon.
I have a lot of e-mails piling up in my inbox that I need to respond to. I know some people are planning on visiting me. I know Pedro and Jamie are visiting around July 4th. Francis was going to come visit sometime during the summer. I promised him I would take him whitewater rafting. Kenny is going to come up after he feels like he has saved some money. Tausha and Michael might visit. Ann has to come visit after I move into my house because I need her help decorating. Bonnie said she might be able to make it up sometime as well. Who else? I want people to come visit me!
Ah, I found it! Here is my waterfall theory! It is true, I tell you!
I worked about 9 hours today. I went out to lunch with some of the guys. Working in the IT field really degenders a female. They just treat me like one of the guys. It is kinda funny. After work, I went to the gym and to the grocery store. It felt good to work out. I tried to buy healthy food at the store. I probably didn't do the best, but I think I did all right.
I am excited that the closing of my house is coming up soon. I need to start calling the utility companies to have all that stuff taken care of. I have some people who have offered to help me move the stuff from the POD to the house.
Let's see . . . any other updates?
I think there might be a mistake with my car insurance. The premium was about $500 or so, so I thought that it was going to be about the same as it was in Florida. However, I got the bill, and it split the payments out over a YEAR. What a minute - does that mean it is HALF of what I am used to? Sheesh. My payment went from about $125 to $45 dollars a month. Home owners insurance went from $900 to $500. Flood insurance was $800 or so and has gone down to nothing! So the cost of living is lower, I am closer to the mountains, there are more IT jobs, and the pay rates are comparable. Oh yeah, although they have hurricanes here, I am sure that I won't find people canoeing down my street any time soon.
I have a lot of e-mails piling up in my inbox that I need to respond to. I know some people are planning on visiting me. I know Pedro and Jamie are visiting around July 4th. Francis was going to come visit sometime during the summer. I promised him I would take him whitewater rafting. Kenny is going to come up after he feels like he has saved some money. Tausha and Michael might visit. Ann has to come visit after I move into my house because I need her help decorating. Bonnie said she might be able to make it up sometime as well. Who else? I want people to come visit me!
Ah, I found it! Here is my waterfall theory! It is true, I tell you!
Ever Dance with the Devil in the Pale Moonlight?
Off to work in a few minutes. I just wanted to say good morning. I think the most noble thing in the world is continuing to care about someone even if they don't treat you in kind. Chip, you do what you need to do for Sally. Just remember that loving her makes you a better person, not her. I think God listens when we pray for others especially when we pray for their best interest in spite of our own.
Take the time to tell someone you love them today.
Take the time to tell someone you love them today.
Sunday, April 03, 2005
NC has Tulips!
Tulips are my favorite flower. Only one guys has ever gotten me tulips; they are fabulous! They don't grow tulips in Florida because the bulps need to have a fairly decent freeze to grow. I am very happy that I am living where tulips can grow. It is very exciting!
Okay, everyone, - put this in your record books. I worked a 70 hour week this week. Woo hoo! This is coming from the Pam who has never worked more than a 45 hour week.
Okay, Brad informed me that the posts on my blog were a little depressing. I need to rememdy that. Myself, I just thought they were reflective. However, I don't want anyone to get the wrong impression.
I am happy right now. I feel better about myself probably than I ever have before. In fact, I pretty much think I kick butt. (Still couldn't bring myself to swear!) I am going back for a PhD so I can be called Dr. Pam. Moreover, they are paying me to go back to school. I am working for twice as much an hour than I probably would have accepted. Although I probably gained 10 pounds at work this week, I am in better shape than I have ever been. I have more money in the bank than I ever have. I know who my true friends are. I have two great cats. (BTW, Ra's birthday was two days ago. He is 5 years old.) I love my car and my cell phone. I have been regularly making it to church for the past few months. I found an apartment situation that was ideal for a month. I am buying a really nice house. I am strengthening my relationship with my family - not by doing just what makes them happy, but by communicating my boundaries and needs with them. I have remembered that I am actually desirable to men (at least a sample size of the population that can be normally distributed using the law of large numbers). I am not apologizing for who I am or what I like. For instance, I love country music and God! Thanks to Pedro, my computer is back up and running. I have goals and things going on that make me feel useful. I am volunteering more, and I am being a good friend. Even though I am still madly in love with Sean, I know he still loves me even though he left. I also know that I am worth loving by Sean or the next guy I choose to fall in love with. I have been perfecting my balance between confidence and pride, humility and low-self esteem. I am independent and accomplished. I know who I am and what I want.
There, that doesn't sound depressing, does it?
God, I know that I tend to worry about the things that I do not have, but I would like you to know that I am very thankful for the things I do have. And, God, please focus on those who need you more than me before answering my prayers. I know that time is not a concept to you, but I offer some other's needs up to you first: Please bless Liz and Chantz's relationship so that they have a loving and stable family environment for Kayla to grow up in. Please help Amber and her husband move to Georgia so that they might get into a better life situation. Please bless the relationship between Ann and Rick. Please help Ann decide if she should move to Las Vegas. Please keep my mom in good health and help her to stop smoking. Please show Kim and Tony happiness in Kentucky and help Kim's back heal. Bless Pedro and Jamie in their engagement. Help them adjust their work schedules so that hat can find more time to spend with each other. Help Stephanie sell her house. And when she moves in with her fiancee Dale, bless that new phase in their life. Bless my friend Kenny. He is a really great guy and will make the right woman very happy. Help Chip with his depression and his health. Give him outlets so that he can enjoy himself and get out of the house. Help Wei's family's business and help her relationship with her boyfriend. Help Sean with his money issues and help in succeed in school and his career. Bring Joel home safely from Afganistan. And God, please position me to be where you want me to be to help others when they are in need. You have blessed me so many times over. Without you, I would be lost. Who knows, I could be in jail, on drugs, homeless, locked-up, or even dead if your grace and mercy didn't save me. I credit you with all that I am. Thank you God. Through Jesus, I pray. Amen!
Here is a thread for those of you out there . . . name something that you are thankful for, and why? For instance, I am very thankful for you!
Hugs,
Pam
Okay, everyone, - put this in your record books. I worked a 70 hour week this week. Woo hoo! This is coming from the Pam who has never worked more than a 45 hour week.
Okay, Brad informed me that the posts on my blog were a little depressing. I need to rememdy that. Myself, I just thought they were reflective. However, I don't want anyone to get the wrong impression.
I am happy right now. I feel better about myself probably than I ever have before. In fact, I pretty much think I kick butt. (Still couldn't bring myself to swear!) I am going back for a PhD so I can be called Dr. Pam. Moreover, they are paying me to go back to school. I am working for twice as much an hour than I probably would have accepted. Although I probably gained 10 pounds at work this week, I am in better shape than I have ever been. I have more money in the bank than I ever have. I know who my true friends are. I have two great cats. (BTW, Ra's birthday was two days ago. He is 5 years old.) I love my car and my cell phone. I have been regularly making it to church for the past few months. I found an apartment situation that was ideal for a month. I am buying a really nice house. I am strengthening my relationship with my family - not by doing just what makes them happy, but by communicating my boundaries and needs with them. I have remembered that I am actually desirable to men (at least a sample size of the population that can be normally distributed using the law of large numbers). I am not apologizing for who I am or what I like. For instance, I love country music and God! Thanks to Pedro, my computer is back up and running. I have goals and things going on that make me feel useful. I am volunteering more, and I am being a good friend. Even though I am still madly in love with Sean, I know he still loves me even though he left. I also know that I am worth loving by Sean or the next guy I choose to fall in love with. I have been perfecting my balance between confidence and pride, humility and low-self esteem. I am independent and accomplished. I know who I am and what I want.
There, that doesn't sound depressing, does it?
God, I know that I tend to worry about the things that I do not have, but I would like you to know that I am very thankful for the things I do have. And, God, please focus on those who need you more than me before answering my prayers. I know that time is not a concept to you, but I offer some other's needs up to you first: Please bless Liz and Chantz's relationship so that they have a loving and stable family environment for Kayla to grow up in. Please help Amber and her husband move to Georgia so that they might get into a better life situation. Please bless the relationship between Ann and Rick. Please help Ann decide if she should move to Las Vegas. Please keep my mom in good health and help her to stop smoking. Please show Kim and Tony happiness in Kentucky and help Kim's back heal. Bless Pedro and Jamie in their engagement. Help them adjust their work schedules so that hat can find more time to spend with each other. Help Stephanie sell her house. And when she moves in with her fiancee Dale, bless that new phase in their life. Bless my friend Kenny. He is a really great guy and will make the right woman very happy. Help Chip with his depression and his health. Give him outlets so that he can enjoy himself and get out of the house. Help Wei's family's business and help her relationship with her boyfriend. Help Sean with his money issues and help in succeed in school and his career. Bring Joel home safely from Afganistan. And God, please position me to be where you want me to be to help others when they are in need. You have blessed me so many times over. Without you, I would be lost. Who knows, I could be in jail, on drugs, homeless, locked-up, or even dead if your grace and mercy didn't save me. I credit you with all that I am. Thank you God. Through Jesus, I pray. Amen!
Here is a thread for those of you out there . . . name something that you are thankful for, and why? For instance, I am very thankful for you!
Hugs,
Pam
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