Procrastination at Its Finest

Ann and Jeanne left today. We had a fun weekend, but I did get a little estrogen overdosed. I am not used to hanging out and being so girly for such long periods of time. We pretty much ate, talked, got pedicures, shopped, ate, talked, shopped, watched chick flicks, and talked. Jeanne just went through a really bad break up, and I can relate. She sounds exactly like I did 6 months ago. I guess the only difference was that it sounds like her boyfriend was a jerk the whole time they were together, and Sean was a jerk in the way he left. I am not sure which one is better. I wish I could say that I was unhappy and am glad he is gone because he treated me like crap.

Tom e-mailed me to tell me that he is engaged. He was my first real boyfriend from highschool. I am very happy for him. I would post the picture he sent me, but my computer is acting funky. I get a cyclical redundancy check every time I open photoshop. If only I paid more attention in Telecom I instead of to the teacher . . .

I have a two page paper to write and a whole crap load of other stuff to do. I procrastinated after dropping them off at the airport. I needed a dose of male companionship, so I met my friend Kevin at the mall. I bought throw pillows for the couch and a print server (which I have eanted to get for about two years now).

I have to actually read 2-3 chapters before writing this paper, so I guess I better get to it!

Pam

Ann and Jeanne

Ann and Jeanne flew in today. Jeanne and I have a lot in common so we are all getting along really well. I think Ann is getting a little annoyed since she has a boyfriend. We have been trying to figure out our ex's.

They are taking power naps right now. I should also take one. And if I don't take one, I should do my homework for my class. I am a little in over my head right now, but I think I will be okay if I can just ride out this week. I am going to see if there are any live bands playing tonight . . .

Yuck

Tough Day . . .

8 AM - 3 PM: Work
3 PM - 5 PM: Project (UNCC) meeting with professors
5PM - 8 PM: Class (Qualitative Research Methods)
8 PM - 9 PM: Dinner (Subway, Darn - I forgot to get them to stamp my card)
9 PM - 10:30PM: Work

I am off to bed!

Pam

In Someone Else's Shoes

I have decided that you can never judge someone if you have never been where they are in live. For instance, I have never had three kids, so I can't say that my sister Lisa has it easier or harder than someone who works all the time. And no one can give me advice on being single if they have never really been single before.

Not sure why that came up. I worked a little late today, and I came straight home to meet for a research project I am working on. I am working from home tomorrow, and my first class starts at 5 PM tomorrow. I am kind of excited and kind of nervous.

I will be working from home on Tuesdays and Thursdays since it will be easier to make it to class. It is really cool that my work was flexible enough to allow that.

I think Samford and Sons is on, but I am not quite sure.

Ann is coming to visit this weekend, so I need to clean up the house some. I am looking forward to the 3 day weekend!

Pam

Never Thought That Would Happen . . .

I accidentally went on a date with an NFL football player tonight. He was nice, but that was completely unexpected. I told him how great I was at flag football. :-) I am sure that impressed him. I think I also accidentally called him retarded, but it was completely unintentional.

I am IMing with Joel right now who is still in Afghanistan. Scuro is mashing me which is making all of this a little bit harder.

It is pretty late. We just finished watching 12 Angry Men. That movie was awesome. However, I need to get some sleep before getting up for church in the morning.

Jason came over earlier today, and we hung out. We had ice cream from Cold Stone's. Yummy Cheescake ice cream with graham cracker pie crust, strawberries, and blueberries. Scott and I had dinner at Chili's. I need to go to the gym tomorrow.

Yawn!

Well, that is enough about the adventures of Pam for today!

Sunrise, Sunrise - Like Morning in Your Eyes

I have been a busy girl. I went to Center City after Five with some friends and saw a live band on Thursday. Last night I just vegged at home. I worked until about 7:15 PM. Today, I have a meeting with Su, another PhD student at UNCC. He and I are doing a project for the university. At 2 PM is a neighborhood pool party. I told Jason he should come with me because I know it is just going to be me and a bunch of couples. This is definitely a family oriented neighborhood!

I need to get on the ball and make Bryan a thank you dinner for doing such an awesome job watching the cats. I also need to stop by Ashley furniture and decide which bedroom suite I want to exchange my chair and a half for. I have a lot to do!

I still need to put together my desk and bookshelves. I need to start organizing things to make sure they get done. My summer class starts on Tuesday. I got $7K in student loans for summer school financial aid. I don't really need it, but they are cheap loans so why not?

Charlotte isn't small, but it is a small world! When I was downtown on Thursday, I saw a guy I had chatted with on-line. So, me being who I am, I walked right up to him and asked him if he was who I thought he was . . . and he was! He remembered who I was too. I thought that was funny, but then even more coincidental things happened. I went home that night and ANOTHER guy I was chatting with sent me a message saying "I saw you tonight at the concert, and you are cute." Hilarious. Then, I was browsing some profiles, and I came across a picture that I HAD TAKEN. I was like, dude! I opened up the ad, and it was a guy I had interned with at Home Depot two years ago. Funny.

Since I am not a bar girl, I am very thankful for the internet. I have met tons of people - almost too many. It is hard to make sure to keep in touch with everyone.

But, I still love my friends back in Tampa Bay. Hey guys!

Sure, I'll Call You to Let You Know I Got Home Safely

Okay, so I didn't call anybody once my plane landed. Is that really surprising? I never do, and I warned them. I had a great time in Tampa. I got to see Kenny, Lizzie, Felicia, Melanie, Adam, Ann, Marlena, Pedro, Jamie, Clint, Liz, and Kayla. Am I missing anyone? I might be because I am pretty tired right now.

Bryan did a great job watching the cats. They were still alive when I got home. I am about to go to bed so I can attempt to get up in time for work tomorrow.

I have to admit that I actually watched the finale of the bachelor. I thought he was going to pick the ditzy overly complimentary chick, but he chose the more serious and cautious chick. There is hope for me yet!

I am very thankful for all of my friends and everything else that I have in my life. I can't complain that I am missing anything . . . except that one thing. I am sure things will work themselves out with God's help. I have realized that it isn't about being perfect so someone will love me. It is about being me. I mean, look at how many very imperfect people out there are happily married!

I digress - well, not really since I wasn't talking about anything specific. Classes start soon. I am getting a little anxious about that. I want to start getting my house in shape. I am excited about Ann visiting, but I am worried that she won't like my house. I know, I know, I am paranoid.

There is scum in my pond. Would it be rude to ask my neighbor to clean it?

I'm liking me better lately. I think the fresh start is helping. There isn't anyone to remind me of things I have screwed up or at least they thought I screwed up. In general, everyone who meets me thinks I am pretty cool. I don't have to prove anything to anyone. They just meet me and accept me. It's great!

Sleepy time. Everyone has Star Wars plans but me. Anyone want to go?

Darn CSS Float Property

I fixed the pesky problem with my template. IE used to handle CSS better than Netscape, but it looks like that has changed! Enough techie talk . . .

My couches come in tomorrow. I am still not sure if I am going to like them or not. I will have to see when they get here. If I am not in love with them, that's okay. I just don't want them to look really awful. My bookcases for the office arrived today. I still haven't put together my desk. I guess I should get the bookcases from the front door and at least move them inside!

I was supposed to go to yoga today, but I ended up staying late at work. We are rolling out another application on Monday, and I have to make sure I have everything done before I leave on Friday.

I want to find someone to go dancing with. I have never been to a country dance club. I want to try to line dance! I know, I know, I am such a geek.

I want to plan a camping trip soon before it gets too hot and after it warms up a little. I guess we are kinda in the rainy season right now. The radio was talking about the upcoming hurricane season. I can't believe that is here again. I guess it has been 8 months since my house flooded. I can't believe how time flies. That is so freaky!

I need to call some people in Tampa tomorrow and see if we can get together. I want to make sure I keep in touch with all my friends. People are not insignificant. It is important to try to show them that.

New Template

Kim said that you guys had to scroll down to see my other blog template. Since my resolution is defaulted to "insanely high," it showed up just fine on my laptop. However, just for you, I decided to change the template. Is this one any better?

I need to get to bed soon. I just wanted to say hello really quickly. I am sorry (blanket) to my friends that I haven't had a chance to catch up with lately. I am not trying to blow anyone off. I have been really busy, and it is hard to keep in touch like I should sometimes. Just know I still love you and will eventually call, e-mail, or see you soon!

We practiced flag football at Freedom Park today. I think practicing is a lot more fun than playing! I went to the gym with a girl from work. Tomorrow is our next flag football game. Hopefully the practicing will pay off. I heard the tram we play tomorrow is really bad so maybe we have a chance!!

There is a guy at work that would be perfect for me except for the fact that he is married. Maybe he has a brother or a friend that is like him . . . hmmmm.

Why is it so hard to keep guy friends? It is almost like when you get to start really enjoying spending time with a guy, he starts to hit on you. Then you have to manage your time with his so you can just stay friends. You would like to spend more time with some guys but you know if you do, you will have to have some kind of awkward talk where you ultimately end up losing a friend anyway. Obviously, I am not opposed to having a romantic relationship, but I am very wary of having one. I think it will have to sneak up on me. I will just have to be so interested in a guy that there is no way I could resist. I don't think it is going to happen with me knowing that it is happening - it will be unexpected and natural. I just don't think I have it in me to get into another relationship deliberately.

Anyhow, I have pear in my teeth. That was my dinner - along with a glass of chocolate milk. Yummy.

I am going to write down my prayers for the night and get some sleep.

Easy Like Sunday Morning

Not a very eventful day. I went to church this morning. Joel sent me a sweet Mother's Day wish (for the cats). Stacey, a guy from church, and his brother-in-law came over. They are going to help me try to get a cat door in between the garage and the house. I took a nap. I did a little work. Man, what took up the majority of my day? Oh well, at least I am rested.

I still need to get my desk put together. I am not in a huge hurry though. I am anxious to get the chair and the couches in the house. It would be nice to have some furniture to fill up the house.

I called my mom for mother's day, and we talked for a while. She and her boyfriend want to come up and visit close to a USC game so he can see Spurrier in action.

I guess I better head to bed. Sweet dreams.

Lazy Saturday

I had a pretty lazy day today. I guess I needed to catch up on my sleep because I fell asleep last night around 8 or 9 PM and slept through the entire night. I woke up aorund 9 AM when Kenny called me. I had lunch with a guy named Kevin. I met him on a roommate finder website when I was trying to find a room to rent before I closed on my house. We went to lunch and walked around for a little while. At 3 PM, I went to the park with the singles group at my church. We played frisbee golf and had a picnic. After that, I just came home and was lazy. Maybe I am getting a little sick because I have been kinda eh all day.

Ann is going to come visit Memorial Day weekend. Kenny is going to come visit in June, and Liz is going to come visit in July. Now I have to see when everyone else is going to be able to come up and see me! I am going to Tampa for the weekend next weekend. I am excited to be going back for a visit. I won't have a car, so I will be at the mercy of whoever wants to come see me and drive me around. Ah, reminds me of high school.

Ohhh, cool news. I saw a trailer today (why do they call it that when it comes out BEFORE a movie?) for the Chronicles of Narnia. Disney is doing them. I am very excited. They did a really hokey version a while back, but maybe the Disney version will be better.

I have to work some tomorrow. Bleh. I am also going to go to church in the morning. I think I might be having lunch with a friend named Chad. Jason might come over in the evening to help me put together my desk. That has been our Sunday night ritual. He comes over, I make a late late dinner, he helps me out with the house, he goes home, and we both wake up way tired for work on Monday morning.

The people in the singles group are a lot older than I am mostly. I had fun though. They seem like a great group of people.

I have some pictures to upload, but I am too lazy to do it right now.

Hugs,
Pam

Way Down Yonder . . .

I just came back from the Alan Jackson concert. It was good. He isn't one of my favorite singers, but he does have some good songs. The cats are creatures of habit. They jumped up on the bed and fell asleep the minute I climbed into bed and opened my laptop. I guess that means I am a creature of habit as well. I better check my alarm clock to make sure it is set. It is getting late so I won't be waking up on my own in the morning. On that note, I better get to bed.

Woo Hoo, I got a work laptop

The good news is that I got a work laptop so I won't have to lug around my desk top anymore. The bad news is that means I will probably be taking a little more work home with me. I think I am going to try to work part time there during the school year. I really like it there, and it should make more money than being a teaching assistant. Eventually, I do want to get the teaching experience though. I know once I started focusing on publishing, I will have to devote all my attention to that.

I got hit on at the gym today. He said I was very beautiful and looked like a professional at yoga. I am probably one of the more advanced people in the class, but I am definitely not a professional. I really like pilates and yoga. I don't have to be coordinated or anything!

One of my neighbors called offerring to help me install my cat door. I think I will call him back and take him up on the offer. I know it isn't good to just keep the garage door open all the time. The bad thing is I don't quite remember which neighbor it is who called me to help. I will have to look up and see if I recognize the numbers I wrote down. People here are really nice. It is amazing.

Bryan F. - You are working too hard! Let's go to a movie or something. You can't keep getting off of conference calls at 10 at night. I know you are a hard worker, but make sure you make a little time to relax (says the pot calling the kettle black).

Ann might come visit me Memorial Day weekend! Woo hoo. That is exciting. I really need help decorating this place. I am a little worried that she won't like what I have done already! Girls are a lot more picky than guys!

There is a really cute guy who works at my gym. He works Monday nights - gives me good motivation to make it to the pilates class. :-)

Jay - Just wanted you to know I miss hanging out with you. I am sorry that things can't be simple, and we can't just hang out and have fun. There are trials to hike, waterfalls to hike to, and lighthouses to see.

Liz might come visit on her way to see her mom, but I am not sure when that will be. Also, Kenny is going to come see the Dave Matthews Band concert with me. I think I already mentioned that. I will be going back to Tampa for the weekend (not this weekend but the next).

I am working from home tomorrow. I have a dr. appt and a meeting on campus with some professors. For those of you who pray, say a prayer for me. I have to go in for a second woman check-up this year (great!), and I want to make sure everything comes back normal this time. Yeah, I know TMI . . . and Pete said that I have lots of walls!

Sorry for the stream of consciousness that I have going tonight. Faulkner would be proud . . . except I am using a bit much punctuation.

Sleep well everyone!

Pam

Sleepy

I am really sleepy, but I can't quite go to sleep yet because I have to wind down from flag football. I am excited because I found the desk collection I am going to get. I like it!

I guess I am feeling a little disconnected lately. I have a lot of friends, but it would be nice to have someone who is even closer than that. Maybe my heart has been broken one too many times, but I just feel like I can't really fall in love anymore. It is like I am just not capable. Hopefully I am wrong.

I changed teams again today at work. I posted some pictures of me and my teammates under my Yahoo photo albums. I am too lazy to provide a link right now.

Anyone out there loving me?

DMV - not too bad

I went to the DMV today to get the form to take to the optomitrist (sp?). However, they had me take the NC eye exam, and I passed. Scary! So since I passed that step, I had to take the written driving test of which I never even opened up a book to study. And I passed! Scary again! Then I had to get my picture taken for my license. Luckily, it turned out okay even though I hadn't planned on having a picture taken today. So that was my adventure today. Now I have to figure out how to get my tag changed.

I should probably take a change of clothes with me tomorrow since I will probably have to play flag football.

Kudos to my friend Jason!! He came over yesterday and helped me move the table I bought from the girl I sublet the apartment from. He also fixed my cabinet handles and installed a new shower head. He even let me drag him to Target so I could go shopping for bathroom accessories. Jason, you are so cool!

I will miss my current job once school starts, but hopefully I can keep in touch with them and work when I have the availability.

Kenny is going to come visit me in June and take me to the Dave Matthews concert. I am going to the Alan Jackson concert on Thursday with my friend Bert from work.

They did a great two part series about Heaven and Hell at church. I recommend listening.

Hugs,
Pam

Bug or no bug, I am going to bed!

I just spent the last 4-5 hours trying to debug a program I am working on at work. Nope, didn't get it. Oh well, maybe I will come up with a solution in my sleep.

I did get a manicure, pedicure, and eyebrow wax today with my friend Jessica. I also bought my first toe ring ever! I know you are excited . . .



I went around the neighborhood this morning saying hi to my neighbors because there was a neighborhood garage sale. Everyone seemed very surprised that I didn't have a husband and kids. Well, that was a little depressing. However, I did get some good offers for lending out husbands for handy work.

I went to the Steven Curtis Chapman concert with the singles group at church on Friday night. The concert was really great. The best part was looking around at all the families praising the Lord together. There was a couple in front of me who was about my age who had a daughter who was about 5. The dad had the little kid on his shoulders, and they were dancing to the music. with the mom's arm around his waist. Wow, that is perfection. Who cares about money, fame, success, material possessions - that is what I want.



I better get some sleep. The weekends seem to short. Things are going well, but I have this slight feeling of discontent . . . like I am just waiting. I am in a stage where it hasn't come, I don't know when it is going to get here or exactly what it is, and it will be the biggest and best thing that could ever happen.