Mike!

I don't realize how much better Mike makes my life until he leaves for a few days, and I get downright grumpy. This time, I freaked out thinking I might have Meningitis because I have been having headaches and neck pain/stiffness. At the same time, I am already on an antibiotic twice a day for something else, so who knows. I know for sure I am a hypochondriac about this stuff, but then I never know when I should worry about my health. I am not the healthiest person in the world, so I am sure if I keep searching, they will find something horrible wrong with me. Back to the note about my wonderful husband . . .

Mike recently had a role change at work. Basically, he will be getting paid the same, get more work, chase smaller deals instead of the bigger ones. So, in some ways it is bad but in others it is good. Not as good that he will have to travel a bit more and be busier while at home, but good because smaller deals make him feel more in control, not like he has to wait to see if a multi-million dollar contract is going to be signed to figure out if he is going to get his commission or not. I mean, he makes a good base pay, put having some steady commission would feel nice too since we are still paying off our wedding. Oh, and the economy sucks.

The reason I love Mike the most is that he is the sweetest man I know. He has a good heart, and I know that he would never do anything to intentionally hurt me. Just the thought of hurting me makes him tear up. When we first met, he had been hurt a few times and had his walls up, but now that I have infiltrated those protective walls, he is my fortress. God sent him to me so I can show him how to love and care about people, and God sent him to me to protect me from the bad things in this world.

I felt helpless and frustrated when Mike was really sick. I wanted to do something to help him feel better, and I couldn't. At the same time, I was overwhelmed because everything was pretty much left up to me. Even now, when he has a strange look on his face, I ask him how he is feeling to make sure he isn't having a really bad heachache or something. Eh, normally, it is probably just gas.

I have officially changed my last name on my social security card. Next stop, the DMV. Ick.

This semester has been busy but productive. This last week hasn't been very good because I haven't been feeling that great. The problem with having your doctor convinced that you are a hypochondraic is that you don't want to go in to him unless you know you are really sick. So, I have this silly feeling that if I go in to him and say that I haven't been feeling well, that he will just blow me off.

Anyway, Mike comes home tonight. I need some cuddling, and hopefully I will feel better tomorrow. Right now, my eyes are hurting along with my head, so I am going to lay down for a bit.

Mike's Birthday

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Originally uploaded by pamela_j_karr

Mike is going to be in Raleigh for his actual birthday (the 19th), so we went to Nakato's this past Friday. His mom, Orson, and Donna joined us. It was fun. I bought him the birthday package where they give you a cake, sing, and take a picture. Cheesy but good. :-)