Saturday, March 31, 2007
Peaceful Warrior
Joel is going to be in town next weekend, and I think we are going to try to go camping.
I have been really sleepy all day today. I think I am just going to go to bed and watch a movie. I have to do homework all day tomorrow. That reminds me; Bennett was going to come over tomorrow to see if he can do anything with the tub front. I need to measure the dimensions for him sometime in the morning.
I gave Ra his birthday present early. I got him a pink catnip mouse. He has already hidden under the couch at least once. Happy 7th birthday Ra!
Improvisation
Yup, I am up again in the early AM. Don't feel sorry for me though because Chris has already gotten up and left for work. I don't know how he does it. I am certainly not a morning person.
I am going to hang out with Muhammed for lunch. I think we are just going to relax at my place and watch a movie. Maybe we should get out to a park instead if the weather is nice. I think I am going to see Peaceful Warrior with Mike later in the evening. I am not sure because he gets in from Japan/Singapore/Taipei sometime this morning. I also have to get a lot of research done this weekend. My prof wants to submit our paper to a journal in the next week or so.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Friends and Lovers
Fat
Maybe I AM a Guy
Ouch, I have sleep in my eye. At least it is in my left eye which I don't really use for much of anything. I am looking up on-line degrees for Chris. He is thinking about going back to school.
Thursday, March 29, 2007
Last Kiss
"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing"
"But it's true"
"It still doesn't mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It's what you do to the people you say you love, that's what matters. It's the only thing that counts. And you did do this thing, right?"
He nods and says: "I just saw the rest of my life, and there were no more surprises. This was it. I mean, it was great... But it was it"
"What makes you think this isn't gonna happen again?"
"I know it won't"
"Oh, right"
"Come on! Aren't we supposed to be able to learn from our mistakes? I did something horrible, but I learned from it. I met this little brunette and I faltered. Are you telling me that throughout your entire marriage you never faltered?"
Stephen stays quiet
"You haven't? Never?"
"Never"
"Oh, that makes me feel great"
"You think it's because I wasn't tempted? You think that this woman is the last brunette that's ever gonna let you know that she wants you? Look at me. I haven't met my last brunette"
"She's the last one I'm gonna kiss. I'm in love with your daughter, Stephen. And maybe that doesn't mean anything to you, but I'm standing here. You're her father. I'm looking you in the eyes and I'm telling you, I will do anything in the world to get your daughter back"
"Really? Anything?"
"I'll do anything"
"People say that. They don't mean it"
"But I mean it"
"Well, it's very simple. Just do whatever it takes"
"It's that simple?"
"Yes. You can't fail if you don't give up."
Crazy Busy
You're Gonna Love Me
I, unfortunately, am not a dreaming girl. I am a very much awake girl. I have slept off my headache, however. Funny enough, Joel and I are IMing back and forth at 3:57 AM. He is up working on some sort of anthopology project. I am trying to make him think of something interesting for me to blog about. He has yet to respond. While he is thinking, XP is updating Charlotte (my laptop), not the city.
Joel Reynolds: the big question, why are you blogging at 4am
Joel Reynolds: what keeps you up at night
Wow, that was a good question. I am not sure if that is something I want to answer in a public forum.
Joel Reynolds: wow, I didn't know there was too personal for your blog
Oh, and so you guys thought that this was all there was to me, did you? Funny, I see that iceburg Pam is overwhelming enough! Anyway, I should probably try to get back to sleep soon.
On a side note, I did find Kim's new "Going to Chicago" blog, and they seem to being fine starting out on their new adventure. Good, good.
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Headache :-(
Going to see the Peaceful Warrior this weekend. If you click on the link, you may still be able to get free tickets thanks to Best Buy. It looks like a pretty inspirational movie.
I am contemplating taking a nap in my office, but I know I won't wake up in time to get to my classroom before the students start to leave. I should probably try to go and get something to eat.
What Goes Around
I stopped by the store on the way to campus to pick up donuts for my students to lighten the blow of the exam; as I was backing out, Pearl got hit by this huge pick up truck. I have never gotten into an accident before. The damage wasn't that bad, but a dent in the bumper pretty much. It is just annoying is all.
So I am on campus now. I spent the last hour or two grading papers, and I am now taking a break. I have class in about half an hour and need to go to the third floor a little early to make copies of the exam I am administering tonight.
Living
3/29 - CHOA Young Professional's Mixer with Chris
3/30 - CHOA Improv outing
3/31 - Lunch with Muhammed
4/1 - Ra's birthday
4/5 - 4/8 - Joel visit
4/21 - Cook out at John's
4/28 - Chris and Pam's cook out
4/29 - Boxing work out with friends
5/4 - End of Spring Semester ** No more coursework! **
5/4 - 5/7 - Tampa/Gainesville for Joel's graduation
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
Love Stinks, Yeah Yeah
I guess I can at least be thankful that the ratio of guys I do like to guys I don't is extremely low. (Going along with my extreme pickiness.) I would estimate that it is about . . . 1/6. (I won't tell you if I have reduced my fraction or not though!) Otherwise, I would just be a complete loser. As it is, I am just unlucky. And I am not being mean about the guys that I don't like. I mean, it just happens or it doesn't. I know guys hate being put in the "friend" zone. Myself, I don't think I have been put in the friend zone before. Guys either love me or hate me most of the time.
Abrupt change of subject . . .
I am paranoid that moquitoes are getting in the house because the windows are open. They can bite me all they want, but I don't want them biting the cats. One wormy mosquito can be life threatening. I have some Canadian Revolution that I bought on the Internet, but I am cynical that it is really the product I bought. It smells pretty much like rubbing alcohol. Ra hates when I put that stuff on his neck anyways. Maybe I will just close the windows and turn on the air conditioning.
Anyway, I am done with my data analysis for tonight. I am on campus all day tomorrow. Luckily, I don't have to prepare a lecture because I am giving an exam.
Data Analysis
Kim . . . when are you going to update your blog and let us know how the move went?
I am going to the Improv on Friday with the CHOA group.
Hiccup
Do the things that happen to us that we can't control become part of who we are? Or is it separate? For instance, if someone has a car accident and becomes crippled - is that part of who the person is now? Is there a way to live with a disability without accepting it as part of who you now are? I don't know. I know that you can't define yourself by it, but can you completely separate it from yourself when it has such an impact on how you live your life?
Scratching my head, not in confusion - it actually just itched.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Almost Tomorrow
I just checked out my blog stats, and I have multinational blog readership now. Woo hoo; Pam goes 'round the world. And I don't even have my passport yet!!

Ra
Appearance: a pharaoh wearing the sun disk on his head.
Description: Ra was the almost universally-worshipped king of the gods and all-father of creation. A sun god, he was said to command the chariot that rode across the sky during the day. A king, he was the patron of the pharaoh. Ra is the most central god of the Egyptian pantheon.
And for those who still can't pronounce Chiaroscuro:
chi·a·ro·scu·ro (kē-är'ə-skʊr'ō, -skyʊr'ō)
The Years that Pass You By
I need to buckle down and do some research now. Bah!
It's Not Me, It's You
Anyone want to get some dinner tonight? I will be around.
Oh, by the way, Chris and I are having a cook out at my place on Saturday April 28th for those who are in town. Hopefully we will have good weather. Chris and Amber are flirting with each other on my evite RSVP. Too funny.
Menopause the Musical
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Third Awakening
I need to post some grades for my students tonight before they figure out where I live and decide to burn down my house.
Second Awakening
I am slowly stretching the sleep out of my body.
Chasing
Maybe Kim will blog soon and let us know how the move went.
I want to go to Europe this summer. I have never been outside of the country save Canada and the cruise. Mark once promised to send me on a trip abroad even if we didn't work out. He probably doesn't remember that though!
I wish I could sleep through the freakin' night.
Saturday, March 24, 2007
Seven Dwarfs
Went to Jetton Park and graded papers today. After that, I went to a friend's for a cook out, and some of us went out on his boat. It was in the 80's today, but it was actually pretty chilly out on the water. I am stuffed with grilled hot dogs and red velvet cake.
I am pensive, and my tummy hurts.
Saturday
English | "Planet" |
Monday | Moon |
Tuesday | Mars |
Wednesday | Mercury |
Thursday | Jupiter |
Friday | Venus |
Saturday | Saturn |
Sunday | (Sun) |
And there you have it. Poor Pluto always gets left out. And Uranus, someone just needs to rename that planet. Well, that was kind of boring. I thought it would be something neat. Monday = Mundane because you have to go back to the daily grinder. Friday = Fried from the long week. Saturday = Sat around all day because it is the weekend. Sunday = Son because of Jesus and the Sabbath. I don't know. I am a dork.
Going to sit at a park somewhere and grade papers today. I think I will see if I can fall asleep for a little bit longer first.
Friday, March 23, 2007
Sleeper
Wish I was being cuddled tonight.
Friday Night
Ooh, John Mayer is going to be in town August 1st. I am going! I am going to wait a bit to find someone to go with me and to buy the actual tickets, but I want to go!!
Charlotte doesn't really have that much going on for being as big of a city as it is.
I just made chocolate chip cookies. They are yummy.
I guess I should get back to work for about half an hour.
Hello World!
Ra sputters instead of purrs
Scuro taps across the floor
Mom's baby, I'm always hers
Been taller than Kim since I was four
Lisa loves her kids so much
Tony cooks like a chef
To Steve the Gators are quite a rush
Watson is pretty much nearly deaf
Listen to the sad song that Mark wrote
Joel is the most stubborn one I've met
Francis is good with a thank you note
Jay's helping mom out with her rent
Tom is a writer by his art
Dave teaches little ones how to play
Jen has one of the biggest, loving hearts
And Kevin dotes on Dax all day
Ann seems to always get me drunk
Mike drives his fancy car
Muhammed would have no problem with a slam dunk
Midtown is Chris's favorite bar
Don, Matt, Simon, Riz, and Tim - some new friends from the cruise
Wendy, Kirk, Susan, Holly, Angela - friends in Charlotte here at home
Tausha, my oldest friend I will never lose
Pedro, Jamie, Melanie, and Adam who I visit when I roam
Too many people to possibly list
And a poet, you know I am not
So I will end by saying this . . .
Thank you, God for this lot!
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Wild Hogs
Anyway.
It is funny. I have taken a lot of pictures (meaning I have had a lot of pictures taken of me) lately, and I look so incredibly happy. If someone didn't know me, they would just think I was this happy-go-lucky person. Thinking back, no matter how bad things were in my life, I always smiled for the camera, and often just for life. One of my favorite poems states, "laugh and the world laughs with you; weep and you weep alone." I have learned how true that statement can be. People grow tired of you quickly when you are miserable all the time. They get fustrated when they can't ever seem to cheer you up. I am lucky that I do have a few good friends who are there for me no matter what. I still tend to put on a smile for the world. I don't like being alone. Solitude sucks.
The smiley face icon for Yahoo keeps disappearing from my system tray. I have to keep clicking on the application launch icon to see my buddy list. I am not a big chatter anyway though. People tend to find me pretty laconic during Internet conversations.
This weekend is Mark's 35th birthday weekend. Happy birthday, Mark! I love you.
Ra's birthday is coming up April 1st. He will be 7 years old. That means that Scuro is going to be 9 years old soon. Life passes by so quickly. I guess that is why I have always been in such a hurry. I just don't want to wake up one day and wonder where all the time went.
Ra Smells
I have to wake up for work in a few hours.
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
Night
Tuesday, March 27 at 6:30pm
Belk Theater at Blumenthal Performing Arts Center
130 North Tryon St.
Charlotte, NC 28202
Get a map to Belk Theater courtesy of Google Maps*
Writer, teacher, activist, Holocaust survivor and Nobel Laureate, Elie Wiesel is one of the foremost advocates for peace and justice of our time. For ten years, his dedication to the advancement of human rights worldwide has inspired the work of The Echo Foundation here in Charlotte. On March 27, 2007, as Echo celebrates its 10th Anniversary, Professor Wiesel returns to Charlotte to speak Against Indifference. In that uniquely quiet, yet powerful voice which motivates world leaders and students alike, he speaks to the urgency of justice for all people, encouraging us to explore our own humanity and to take personal responsibility for the human condition.
Event photo © Peter Badge/Typos1 in coop. with Foundation Lindau Nobel prize winner Meetings at Lake Constance
For more information about Against Indifference, by Elie Wiesel, Nobel Laureate:
Please visit the Echo Foundation website. *
Broken Promises
Annapolis
Long Day
I will be on campus today until about 9 PM. I ate an early lunch before I came to campus, so I am starting to get hungry again already.
Bedtime
My friend Pietro is trying to convince me to visit him in Dallas for his birthday. Pietro was a PhD student at UF when I was an undergrad; he is from Italy. He was living over seas but recently relocated to Texas. I haven't seen him in probably . . . six years. Somehow we have managed to loosely keep in touch. It would be interesting to see him. We never really hung out before because I had a boyfriend at the time. So we will see. This semester is pretty busy, but maybe.
I had Chris take some pictures of me when my make-up was still done. He thinks I am crazy, I am sure. He is a sweetie pie though. I made cookies earlier and had him take the last batch out of the oven. He brought two of them up to me with a gladd of milk. That is what I call a good roommate. I have to remember to make sure he turned the oven off though.
Here is a picture of me and the last guy I kissed:

Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Glamour Shots

One Cat
Tony is out of town. You can tell because Kim is blogging at 2 AM in the morning. They are moving to Chicago soon, and she has been busy packing. The physical aspect of moving is never fun.
I was trying to convince my mom to go to California with us in June/July. I think she would really enjoy seeing her brothers and sisters. I think, in some ways, she stays away because being back in San Francisco brings back bad memories of hard times in her life. However, I know she really does love her brothers and sisters. Hopefully she will decide to go. If she does, I want to find a way to help pay her way to get there. She has been spending a lot of money fixing up her new place. A lot of money she doesn't really have. Usually, I would frown on something like that, but I think it is okay this time. She deserves to live in a nice place; it has been waay over due. She works really hard and is a good person. She has had a harder life than any one of us three girls, I think. She is stronger than I would ever be. I feel guilty that I didn't do something to better her situation earlier. It took the actions of my ex-boyfriend to get her into a nicer place. Life is funny that way. I can't believe how much a little change like getting to live in a bigger and a bit nicer place made a difference in her life.
Mike is off to Japan for two weeks for work. Before he left, he took me to see Ru, the Australian shephard puppy he is bringing home in April. Soo cute. I actually got to see the whole litter and the mom and dad at the breeder's place. I got multiple puppy scratches, bites, and an occasional hair pulling. Puppies are so adorable. Kirk and I are supposed to take Sable to the nursing home again this Saturday.
I am thirsty. Ahhh. I just got a bottle of water. All better now except I will have to go to the bathroom again soon. Talk about an over-active bladder.
Scuro is now getting bathed by her brother. He spoils her so badly. Chris's alarm is going off upstairs. I usually don't hear it when I am asleep. He has to get up soo early. Poor guy. I bought him three packs of cookies yesterday when I went to the store. He is a great roommate. I am trying to make more time to hang out with him. We are going to a movie on Thursday. Maybe the Astronaut Farmer or Wild Hogs.
I am taking my first ever Glamour Shots today. I am supposed to bring two outfits with me, and I am not quite sure what to bring. At least if these don't turn out, I still have some good pictures from the cruise. Yeh! I have some packages ready to send out, but I am procrastinating on actually sending them. On-line USPS shipping labels are a wonderful thing. I have shipped more packages this year than I have in my whole life. The post office is just too far away (meaning not in my house).
Monday, March 19, 2007
Sleeepy
I can't think very straight right now. I will probably write more around 4-5 in the morning.
How Forever Feels
I need to go to the store and get soft drinks and cat food. I probably need other stuff too, but it can wait. I really need to file my taxes on-line soon too. I don't think I will get much back this year.
I guess I could arrive at my meeting early.
Sunday, March 18, 2007
Nuts
I was thinking about how different people handle things. I tend to date guys who have a problem dealing with every day problems and live a life of constant fustration. However, they don't blink at eye when something major happens. On the other hand, I handle the little things pretty easily, but when it comes to the bigger things, I fall apart. So, in general, it is hard to understand where the other person is coming from because we all handle things differently. I have always been willing to help out with the little things, but in return, I need help with the bigger things sometimes. I am not in search of someone who is just like me. I don't think I have met anyone anywhere close to being like me. It isn't a requirement as long as they can acknowledge who I am as well.
BTW, who the heck lives in Walnut, California?
Eh Ho-Hum
Ra's birthday is coming up April 1st. He is going to be seven years old. I can't believe it. He still acts like a kitten to me. However, it did take him a few years to perfect his porn star pose.
I just made a banana, lemon juice, and cinnamon milkshake. It was pretty good, but I forgot to crush any ice in it so it was a little warmer than I had imagined it would be. I had a salad for dinner (just now), so I have an almond stuck between my teeth.
Joel and I might go camping when he comes up in April. I have been wanting to go camping for quite some time now, but it has been pretty cold. Plus, I don't have any camping gear. We will have to see what we can come up with.
Slow Motion
I am sluggish today. I am going to hop in the shower now to see if that helps wake me up. St. Patty's was fun. Some people took some really good pictures, but I didn't bring my camera so I don't have any to post yet.
I Burped
OMG!
Kim! Check to make sure Harley and Grace aren't affected. I know you feed them wet foods sometimes.
Aloha
Went out with some friends tonight. Amber is going home in the morning. I am sleepy. Big yawn.
I have horrible dandruff right now. I guess my scalp got sunburned on the cruise. Now I am brushing out all this dead, peeling skin. Sexy, I know.
I better get some sleep tonight. I have to do homework tomorrow. It is cold here tonight and Marvin isn't cutting it. I have an electric blanket, but I washed it in the washing machine once, so I am paranoid about plugging it in.
Chris is the best roommate ever. I am so lucky to have found him; I have to figure out something nice to do for him soon. I think we are going to go watch a movie next Thursday.
Today was a good day. Thank you, God!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
St. Patrick's Day
I showered this morning, but I have to go see if my pony tail has given me a weird cowlick. Yes, the joys of being a woman.
More Pirated Materials
The commitment to knowing someone in every possible
way -to falling in love with more than the idea - more
than the ideal - to see the day to day partner -
recognize when they're crazy and when they're sane,
when they seem close and far - to support their growth
and change as your own - and to continually pray that
they share the same commitment - to falling in love -
and out of love - over and over - amen.
Seattle
Ugh, my tummy is upset. I had ribs, wings, fried green tomatoes, and cheesy garlic bread for dinner last night. Maybe that wasn't the best choice. The wings weren't very good; I didn't like the sauce. I went shopping for healthy food the other day, so I will be eating better soon.
Once I catch up from my vacation, I will be in better shape. Hopefully I will be able to do that by Tuesday. My game plan (using for my own reference):
Saturday: Log on for work, work on revising my paper (the parts I already have written but need to reorganize). Send professor research framework for feed back. Call Prietula to see if I should register for conference in Palo Alto. St. Patty's party.
Sunday: Go to church. Maybe try the single's ministry at Hickory Grove? Revise paper, parts that I have to do additional research for.
Monday: ACM-W meeting. Call in to work to transition project to QA. Grade papers. Visit with Ru.
Tuesday: SLC Meeting, Glamour shots appointment (cheesy, I know). Finish paper revision for both EIT and technology-productivity papers.
Wednesday: Grade more papers. Be home for maid service. Office hours, class, and teach. Turn in both papers.
Thursday: Work.
Friday: Research seminar. Work.
Saturday: Pet therapy.
Sunday: Church. Self defense class.
So it looks like I can plan something fun for Thursday through Friday. Maybe I will check out what CHOA has going on. Ooh, they have a swing dancing class on Thursday. They also have a informational event to learn about things to see in NC, but it is currently full. I added myself to the waiting list though. There is a free belly dancing class next month, but I think I am too chicken for that.
I guess I should try to get back to sleep now that I have planned my week.
Where is my armpit?
Ooh, I just found a relationship checklist on Yahoo. Not sure if I agree, but interesting nonetheless.
1. Kids or no kids? KIDS
2. Smoking or no smoking? NO SMOKING
3. Drinking or no drinking? (Same for drugs) MODERATE DRINKING/NO DRUGS
4. Religious beliefs: Match? Blend? Clash? BLEND
5. Who works? Who stays home (especially when the kids come along)? BOTH
6. Who wants to live where? NOT PARTICULAR
7. Who controls the checkbook? NOT PARTICULAR
8. What is his/her personal relationship with his/her family? Too distant? Too close?
Too weird? Appropriate to your standards? CLOSE BUT NOT COMPLETELY A MOMMA'S BOY
9. How are holidays spent? At home? With family? Alone? Vacationing? WITH FAMILY/VACATIONING
10. Windows opened or closed? Heat/AC on or off? WINDOWS CLOSED, A/C ON
11. What side of the bed must you (he/she) sleep on? RIGHT (FACING BED)
12. Where to spend vacations? Leisure time? TRAVELLING
13. Sick: Left alone or babied? BABIED
14. Appropriate gift giving: birthdays? Yuletide holidays? Special occasions? ALL THE TIME
15. Who does what around the house? UH, HOUSEKEEPER?
16. What is acceptable hygiene? BATHE DAILY
17. What are his/her hobbies, pastimes? VARIED
18. Preferences: Music? Movie? Book favorites? OPEN
19. Favorite foods? I AM THE PICKY ONE
20. Pets or no pets? What kind? PETS!
21. Decisions about the children: School, church, discipline, allowance,
extra curricular activities, friends, and curfew? TBD
22. Mealtimes: Early or late? LATE
23. Furniture: Vintage or Contemporary? CONTEMPORARY
24. Sleeping habits: Four hours or eight? EIGHT
It also says to look at:
How does your new love handle a crisis? Behave in public places? Treat your friends and family? I also think you can tell a great deal about your new mate by the way he treats his mother and how she treats her father.
Anyway, I should try to get some sleep. Happy St. Patty's Day!
Friday, March 16, 2007
Every Moment Marked
It got cold very quickly today after it rained; I don't think I am cut out for the cold. The cats aren't that big into the cold weather either (as Scuro is trying to find her way under the covers).
I guess I don't have much to say tonight. I am pretty tired from the week and have a few deliverables due next week. I don't even want to think about the stack of papers I have to grade. Oh boy.
G'night.
Deadlines
You Humble Me Lord
Restless
Anyway, earlier today - er, I guess, yesterday, it was mentioned that I was difficult. Just to clarify for anyone who is still debating about this, yes, I truly am difficult. And, I will help delineate some of the ways in which this is true:
I rarely order directly off the menu. I will embarrass you in front of any waiter. And, I will ask for ketchup with my steak. Sharing meals is no longer an option. I usually shuffle food around on plates without warning. I will most likely not let the unsaid go unspoken. I will challenge people to speak what is really on their minds. Pam = Option Strict, Option Explicit. I often delve into who people really are underneath which makes them uncomfortable. I am sarcastic, at times, and have been told I am a "smart ass." (Quoted of course because I only swear when I am really mad.) I urge myself and others toward continuous self improvement. I am a perfectionist. When I do get sleep at night, I grind my teeth. I have this great combination of depression and anxiety where I can get both lethargic and antsy at the same time. I am one of the most impatient people you will ever meet. I only listen to the first 10 seconds of every voicemail before I delete it. I respond quicker to emails than phone calls. I plan everything, even my short bursts of spontaneity. I constantly seek human companionship so I usually have a boyfriend and always have lots of friends. I am horrible at taking criticism. I have a really short attention span and can usually only do one thing for a few hours at a time. I interrupt people when they are talking. I am overly critical and analytical. Like most women, I think I am fat. I rarely need personal space. I constantly seek love and attention. I don't ever really relax. My mind is always on. I hate to drive because I don't have depth perception. I cry when I am both sad or angry. I talk about my cats all the time. I don't have a problem asking other people to help me with random things. I generally know what I want and express my opinions. I don't let people take the easy way out. I have been called a pain in the butt. I am sleepy most of the time. Sometimes I talk to much and others I am too quiet. I am a touch cynical and tend to think of the worst case scenario. I don't have a very good personal filter and usually just speak/write what is on my mind. Hence, this blog.
So, yes, I admit I am difficult. I am also extremely caring, loving, silly, smart, some say pretty, and well accomplished. I can compromise and will do anything I can for the people I love. So some may say I am worth it anyway. Yes?
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Cried
I have a meeting on campus tomorrow, and I am working from home the rest of the day. Pretty boring, I know. I booked my ticket to go see Joel's graduation in Tampa from May 4 to May 7. He also booked a ticket to come visit me from April 5 to April 8. He gave me a coupon for a hike to a waterfall for my 26th birthday. Maybe I will cash that in when he is here. Hopefully it didn't have an expiration date on it.
My nails are getting too long; they are hindering my typing. I will have to cut them in the morning.
Stolen
Every girl dreams that one day, she will find a boy that does these things for her. Even the smallest action can have THE BIGGEST impact in someone's life.
GIVE HER ONE OF YOUR T-SHIRTS TO SLEEP IN.
LEAVE HER CUTE TEXT NOTES
KISS HER IN FRONT OF YOUR FRIENDS.
TRUST HER OVER EVERYONE ELSE.
TELL HER SHE LOOKS BEAUTIFUL.
LOOK HER IN THE EYE WHEN YOU TALK T0 HER.
LET HER MESS WITH YOUR HAIR.
MESS WITH HER HAIR.
JUST WALK AROUND WITH HER.
*FORGIVE HER FOR HER MISTAKES.*
LOOK AT HER LIKES SHE'S THE ONLY GIRL YOU SEE.
TICKLE HER EVEN WHEN SHE SAYS STOP.
H0LD HER HAND EVEN WHEN YOU ARE AROUND YOUR FRIENDS.
WHEN SHE STARTS SWEARING AT YOU TELL HER YOU LOVE HER.
LET HER FALL ASLEEP IN YOUR ARMS
GET HER MAD, THEN KISS HER.
TEASE HER & LET HER TEASE YOU BACK.
STAY UP WITH HER ALL NIGHT WHEN SHES SICK.
WATCH HER FAVORITE MOVIE WITH HER
KISS HER FOREHEAD.
GIVE HER THE WORLD.
WRITE HER LETTERS.
LET HER WEAR YOUR CLOTHES
WHEN SHES SAD, HANG OUT WITH HER.
LET HER KNOW SHE'S IMPORTANT.
LET HER TAKE ALL THE PHOTOS OF YOU SHE WANTS.
KISS HER IN THE RAIN.
AND WHEN YOU FALL IN LOVE WITH HER, TELL HER.
AND WHEN YOU DO TELL HER. LOVE HER LIKE YOU NEVER LOVED BEFORE.
Remember:
If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you. Like from the show Sex and the City, if he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested :)
Bang!
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
No More, No Less
I guess I should give a PhD update. Since I am up to my elbows in it, most of the time, I don't really want to talk about it. I will be done with my coursework after this semester. I am taking comps in the fall along with dissertation credits. As of right now, I won't be teaching anymore classes until next spring. They don't have anything for me to teach summer or fall. I may try to see if I can pick up a class at one of the community colleges in the area. I currently have a 3.9 GPA. I got a B in a fluffy MBA course that I had to take. No biggie. I have presented at two conferences so far, and I recently submitted two more papers to another conference. I have chosen my dissertation topic and have started writing up parts of my proposal. It should take about a year and a half yo finish up my dissertation unless something bad and unexpected happens. That's pretty much it.
Here is an update on the family: Kim and Tony are moving to Chicago on March 24th. Mom and Watson moved into Jay's townhouse a week or so ago. Lisa, Steve, and the kids are never going to move. I did, however, get Lisa on the Internet to look at the pictures on my blog. She refuses to touch a computer. I made seven year-old Emily help her. I can't believe my neices and Nephew are getting so big. Unbelievable. Mom is still working at the optical at JC Penney. Kim has launched full-time into her career as a writer. Lisa is the typical soccer mom. I love my family.
I guess that's it for now. I will probably write more later when I am desperately trying to get some sleep.
Daily Grind
-Thursday, movie - Bridge to Terabithia
-Friday, dinner with friends
-Saturday, St. Patty's party
-Sunday, Church
-Next Monday, volunteer activity
-Next Tuesday, Glamour Shots
-Next Saturday, pet therapy with Kirk
-Next Sunday, self defense class
-April, Joel was going to come visit, but unconfirmed
-April, CHOA event
-May, official end of PhD coursework
-May, trip to Tampa for Joel's graduation
-June, trip to San Francisco to see family
-July, Francis visit for friend's wedding
So some things I want to add to this list:
-Camping trip
-Concert
-Play
-Hike
-More volunteer activities
-Cookout at my place
-Paint upstairs hall
-Paint guest/exercise room
-Visit mom in her new place
-Trip to the Smoky's
-Trip to OBX
Catticade
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
Taking Risks
We all like to think that our actions could never permanently damage the life of another. We are wrong. Yes, people can learn from being hurt, but I don't think getting hurt is actually healthy for any of us. The loss of hope is the nearest to death. Broken promises can be worse than physical harm. We all need to be careful with the hearts that we affect. None of us are perfect, but that is no excuse to be frivolous.
Idleness
The Keys to Your Heart |
![]() You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Libra - Your Love Profile |
![]() Your positive traits: You are open minded enough to date outside your typical "type" ... successfully! You are diplomatic - and likely to end a fight instead of dragging things out. You are easily loyal and faithful, but only for the right person. Your negative traits: You're a bit gullible, and partners take advantage of you. You still may not know it. You find it difficult to decide where to go to dinner, what movie to watch, who to date... You have to be in a relationship, or else you just don't feel like yourself. Your ideal partner: A smooth talker who enjoys socializing as much as you to. Someone classy and cultured who knows which wine to order with dinner. Is beautiful to you - although not necessarily attractive in the traditional sense. Your dating style: Romantic. If your date comes bearing flowers, wine, and poetry... well, your heart soars. Your seduction style: Giving. Your lover's pleasure is as important as your own. Soft and sensual - you don't like anything to be rough. Extravagant ... your fantasy involves staying at a five star hotel with your love. Tips for the future: Don't be so quick to compromise in relationships - and you'll get taken advantage of yes. Try being single for a while. Seems impossible, but you'll learn so much about yourself from doing so. Make some decisions about your romantic life, right now. You'll be happy that you did. Best color to attract mate: Green Best day for a date: Wednesday |
Your Brain is 47% Female, 53% Male |
![]() Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
Your Love Type: INFJ |
![]() The Protector In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship. For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls. Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in. However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself. Best matches: ENTP and ENFP |
The Part of You That No One Sees |
![]() You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful. |
Grumpy
Carnival Lied!!!







I was able to scan the pictures I bought from Carnival without getting the watermark. I knew they were lying. Sooo awesome!! Yay! I am happy now.
I have to shower before Jay gets here for lunch. I cancelled my appointment this morning because I was up until 2:30 AM. I was playing around on the computer, and Mark IMed me for the first time in two and a half months. It was good, yet ambivalent, to hear from him.
Today is a catch up day, and tomorrow I am on campus. I am catching up with some of my friends this weekend for St. Patty's Day. Mike is going to be blind all weekend due to the laser eye surgey. Just thinking about it makes me queasy. Ick.
Just saw Chris; he came home from lunch. I showed him some of the pictures. My mom is probably going to get the majority of the printed photos since she can't view them on-line. Kim, if you see one you like, let me know which one you want me to send you. I need to send Lisa some new pictures. I think the most recent ones she has of me are from high school.
Yummy, Thirsty
Sweet dreams.
Monday, March 12, 2007
Cruise 2007 Photos
Pam's pictures (Includes some of Ann and Simon's photos)
Riz's pictures
Matt's pictures
Postscript: Tampa airport has free wi-fi. I love this airport!!!
Saturday, March 10, 2007
Pumpkin
Good thing I dieted before the cruise. Now I will have to go back on the diet once I get home (after the crème brulee). The food on the cruise has been too good to refuse. I don’t have Internet minutes any more, so I am paying 75 cents a minute. I am typing this on-line to post once I am done. Today was a pretty lazy day at sea. I woke up and had a scalp massage with an oil treatment for my hair. Then I got a French pedicure. I went back to bed until quite past lunch time. I bought some pictures (yikes, $75 worth) that were taking by the cruise photographers. I ate dinner, hung out with some of the group, and watched an improv comedy show. I am back in the room now and plan to go to sleep soon. Tomorrow is another day at sea, and I am looking forward to getting back to the
Mom has moved into her new place, so I am excited for her. I don’t know what Kim and Tony are up to these days. I am sure they are packing for
Anyway, it has been a great trip even though it has been kinda long. It will be good to be back home.
Friday, March 09, 2007
Rock the Boat
Today was an awesome day. We took a trip from
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Love Me!
It's an Illusion!
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
Antigua
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
Departing St. Thomas
We toured
Some Pictures!
Breakfast in Bed
Monday, March 05, 2007
Ship Blog Day 2
Short Blog, Sleepy
Actually had dinner tonight and went to a mini broadway like show. The ship has been rocking a little more today than before. Half the people on the cruise ship are from
Sunday, March 04, 2007
Pam and Ann’s Cruise Adventure
Saturday - We got off to a rocky start because we arrived at the cruise ship at 3:30 PM when it embarked at 4 PM. Somehow, travel went slower than anticipated and for the last half an hour, we thought we were going to miss the cruise for sure. Ann and I were freaking poor Joel out. He did a great job and got us here just in the nick of time. We got on the ship and to our room. We proceeded to do a life boat drill, and then we were off. There was a meet and greet cocktail hour since we are here with a single’s group. I had two fruit punches which Ann assumed were alcoholic. However, when she found out that it was just fruit punch, she was adamant that I have something to drink. As luck would have it, we passed by a free alcohol tasting. She poured a whole bunch of little ketchup cup fulls of alcohol in me with quite a bit of protest. We went back to the room and changed for dinner. By then, I was starting to get red and blotchy. We got to the dining room for dinner, and I was getting even worse. I kept insisting this Alaskan guy across from me looked Asian. And I was saying random things to the guy beside me. I do remember ordering lamb chops, but I never got a chance to eat them. I was about to pass out at the table, so I had the guy beside me carry me to the bathroom. I think I threw up on him. I don’t remember much after that, but I think Ann came and got me off the floor of the women’s room and brought me to bed. That’s all she wrote. This is the second time Ann thought it would be fun to see me drunk. She never quite realizes how little alcohol I can hold.
Sunday – I woke up rather late with a bit of a headache. Luckily, my body forces me to have instant hang overs and purges my itself of alcohol even before the majority ever hits my liver. So I wasn’t too bad this morning. Ann woke up at 6 AM (is she crazy?) and went to the gym (again, is she crazy??). I woke up and worked on my paper submission for the AMCIS conference (am I crazy?). We got a bit of breakfast when she came back; I was still in my pajamas. We caught up with the single’s group for lunch. After that, Ann went for a massage and spa treatment. I got to wear my new, sexy bathing suit and sat out by the pool with Simon, a guy from
Friday, March 02, 2007
Kick But No Fruit
I slept on the plane, so that was nice. I am currently getting a shoulder massage which is really nice. Joel and Liz both remembered how I would start back massage groups in high school even though I knew them from different schools. At least I am consistent, I guess.
Picking Ann up from Marlena's at 9:30 AM, and Joel is driving us to Ft. Lauderdale. Ann wants to pick up alcohol on the way to bring on the cruise ship. She says it will be less expensive that way. I never really think about things like that.
I feel for certain that I didn't pack enough clothes, but I guess I will be all right. I plan to take a lot of pictures! I am typing this from Joel's computer and have been checking my email via my phone before I had access to the actual internet. I am staying in a dorm room, I believe, for the first time ever in my life. There are random military accessories everywhere, but it is relatively unscary.
Anyway, I will probably wake up at 4 AM like always to blog, so I better get going. Hugs.
Waking Up
National Pig Day
I work tomorrow, then I fly out to Tampa for my cruise. I have paper revisions that need to be done before March 5th, so I will have to take some time on the cruise to do that. Not an ideal situation, but it is necessary. Maybe I can get some done on the plane and car ride to Ft. Lauderdale.
Anyway, it is past my bedtime. Life has been crazy lately.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
Lacking Faith
Not sure why I decided to write about that, but that is what came out of the tips of my fingers this early morning before I go back to bed.
God, I just pray for your strength for myself and for others. We are a lost and desperate world trying to be strong when really we need to rely on you. Help us follow your path to avoid the pain and suffering we would otherwise find. Don't just love us; take care of us. Through Jesus, Amen.